i don't even like the taste. the placebo effect that people do actually feel good after drinking this is making me feel the same. earlier i just bought a bottle of soju and a can of beer i rly wanna talk to a specific someone about my stuff but all i could do is just shut everything down and drink my troubles away.
im too much of a bother and it hurts. i rly wanna drink alcohol now but i have an exam tomorrow and that's the only thing stopping me rn. after my exams, im gonna drink these up. now I'm thinking that i should add another can of alcohol now...
my morals say i don't wanna become an alcoholic but ngl i lowkey want to be one too like d*e from drinking too much alcohol type shit. worse is i wanna cry rn but i cant cuz im not drinking alcohol so like im sitting here on the floor typing this on my most pokerface when I'm the inside, my mind is actually in chaos.
i think you're lonely, man. you're chasing the feeling of feeling light and bliss after talking to someone. Thats why the placebo works, thats why you're writing this post; its not the booze, its the social aspect. Keep living, make friends or if you already do either open up or make new ones, avoid drinking if you get tempted people have different thresholds for this kind of stuff. Live well, love you whoever you are, hope it gets better <3
Frankly speaking, deaths from alcohol aren't fun. It's either acute poisioning which is pretty hard to achieve, cuz vomiting usually disallows too much alcohol consumption. Or its a long, painful, drawn out death with chronic daily alcohol use. And here I am talking decades usually. The root of the issue here does not seem to be the alcohol really, just mental health. I would recommend seeking help, but its all up to you. I wish you all the best ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~ Good luck with exams!
I know it’s really hard. But there’s more ways than one to release stress. Drinking causes more problems than solve them, and you’ll feel even worst. Try going for a walk, self help books, ted talk videos, or even try journaling. It’s hard but you’re enough. Have some self compassion, it’s hard but it really helps. Forgive yourself for not being perfect, no one is, you’re not supposed to be, and the world is not perfect, but that’s okay. You’ve got this, I believe in you!
Alcohol is genuinely one of the worst things on the planet. Everything in moderation is better. You recognize that you are becoming dependant on it so please don't cave in and lean into it. Try to resist!!! Of couse its easier said than done life fking sucks and alcohol is amazing to forget it but please don't do it. I had a loved one who became addicted and it was so hard to watch. There was nothing I could do because I was a child and the adults weren't doing shit so PLEASE don't go down the path of alcoholism I don't know the solution but maybe just ranting into the void(the internet or a journel or sth) like you're doing rn might lessen your load. And also the crying thing it sounds so dumb but i also used to be unable to cry even if I wanted like my mind was stopping me from crying but I kinda improved that by reading a bunch of sad stories or whatever sad media there is and over time once I got used to crying over fictional stories I could cry a little whenever I feel bad in real life.
I super don't recommend. My dad is an alcoholic & both of his parents were too (& also died from it). if you can reach out for help you should, either loved ones or a professional, but if you can't afford mental health professionals or anything I Highly recommend just doing dumb shit you weren't allowed to do as a child that you really wanted to do. I'm sorry that you're hurting. I've struggled with depression for twenty years Σ(°Д °;) and you can buy like so many gummy worms with the money you'd spend on alcohol. Or a silly snoopy tattoo, or roller skates, or art kits, etc
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i think you're lonely, man. you're chasing the feeling of feeling light and bliss after talking to someone. Thats why the placebo works, thats why you're writing this post; its not the booze, its the social aspect. Keep living, make friends or if you already do either open up or make new ones, avoid drinking if you get tempted people have different thresholds for this kind of stuff. Live well, love you whoever you are, hope it gets better <3
Frankly speaking, deaths from alcohol aren't fun. It's either acute poisioning which is pretty hard to achieve, cuz vomiting usually disallows too much alcohol consumption. Or its a long, painful, drawn out death with chronic daily alcohol use. And here I am talking decades usually. The root of the issue here does not seem to be the alcohol really, just mental health. I would recommend seeking help, but its all up to you. I wish you all the best ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~ Good luck with exams!
I know it’s really hard. But there’s more ways than one to release stress. Drinking causes more problems than solve them, and you’ll feel even worst. Try going for a walk, self help books, ted talk videos, or even try journaling. It’s hard but you’re enough. Have some self compassion, it’s hard but it really helps. Forgive yourself for not being perfect, no one is, you’re not supposed to be, and the world is not perfect, but that’s okay. You’ve got this, I believe in you!
Alcohol is genuinely one of the worst things on the planet.
Everything in moderation is better. You recognize that you are becoming dependant on it so please don't cave in and lean into it. Try to resist!!!
Of couse its easier said than done life fking sucks and alcohol is amazing to forget it but please don't do it.
I had a loved one who became addicted and it was so hard to watch. There was nothing I could do because I was a child and the adults weren't doing shit so PLEASE don't go down the path of alcoholism
I don't know the solution but maybe just ranting into the void(the internet or a journel or sth) like you're doing rn might lessen your load.
And also the crying thing it sounds so dumb but i also used to be unable to cry even if I wanted like my mind was stopping me from crying but I kinda improved that by reading a bunch of sad stories or whatever sad media there is and over time once I got used to crying over fictional stories I could cry a little whenever I feel bad in real life.
I super don't recommend. My dad is an alcoholic & both of his parents were too (& also died from it).
if you can reach out for help you should, either loved ones or a professional, but if you can't afford mental health professionals or anything I Highly recommend just doing dumb shit you weren't allowed to do as a child that you really wanted to do.
I'm sorry that you're hurting. I've struggled with depression for twenty years Σ(°Д °;)
and you can buy like so many gummy worms with the money you'd spend on alcohol. Or a silly snoopy tattoo, or roller skates, or art kits, etc