my ex that is my situation ship pls help me n give me thoughts

so me and my ex, we’ll name him vic. me and vic used to be together, and we were together for about 3 months, and i have to admit, he is literally my first love. That man has made me feel things that i’ve never felt with any other guy and ever since him, i have never been able to talk to a guy properly without trying to find him in other guys. we broke up because i had moved away to another state. when it was the peak of our break up we didn’t keep contact, but then he broke contact to “check up” on me and ever since we been in contact with each other. sometimes we sleep on call and baby each other, and just still talk to each other in general because we both still love each other very much and we’ve talked about trying again with each other in the future. recently i’ve been back home, and i saw him a few days ago. it was very awkward at first but then we started getting more comfy with each other, he started getting touchy and then we started cuddling. while we were cuddling our faces ended up really close to each other and he was looking at my lips and then he pulled me in for a kiss, then we started making out. the makeout got intense and then his hands ended up in my pants. i’m gonna be very honest i had no intentions doing the things we did because obviously we’re exs and like i thought he would have a boundary and shit but no we ended up getting freaky and shit after he took me home, i thought he would text me bc like we just fucking did allat shit but no he didn’t. he didn’t send one text to me and was dead fucking silent, i’m just like okay, so i texted him, the convo was flowing but then he stopped replying , and the next day he started saying sorry to me for treating me like that and just being very apologetic. i honestly don’t know what going on in his head, and i want to sort out what we are but i don’t wanna lose him and start something with him. what should i do? what do y’all think i should do? helppppp