I may be insane

Idk why I'm suddenly thinking of this, but I'm curious if anyone else has felt this way. When I get close to someone enough, I want to touch them not sexually but I want to poke and prod and caress and smack and push and pull, it's kind of a problem I can break boundaries if I wasn't cognizant of myself. I used to just hit people all the time when I was a little kid, obviously I would get in trouble but I never felt guilty, its just a super strong urge. It's similar to cuteness aggression I guess, though I've felt that separately. I'm also not a sadist I don't think.
So i'm jus curious if any other of u freaks love to bother people you're super close with.