Been feeling depressed because of my art skills. Lately I've tried drawing but I physically feel frustrated and sad when I try to be creative. I get so jealous now of artists who can draw because they wanna get better/are passionate with art. I hate art now. And I know people are gonna say "don't compare yourself!" But how can't I? There are artists who i look up to, and I know it takes time to improve but It really does hurt to see people draw naturally. I know why I haven't improved, but when I try to, it genuinely hurts. I feel like my life has been centered around art so much. I appreciate that my other fellow artist say im "good" but I could've been better. I'm stuck between giving up, or trying and keep getting hurt. Now I only draw when I'm really excited over something or if someone asks me to draw them something. I find drawing for others easier to handle. Sighh I wanna try, but it's no lie, I genuinely get chest pains when I even think about art.
