Dad cheats, belittle mom, forces labour on her, even before I was born. This go on and on for 20 years. Mom don't leave, she's staying for me and my siblings she said. Mom convinced me to pray and wait for my father ever since he started having an affair again 5 years ago. I did, it's taking a toll on me. My siblings , feeling I'm their responsibility, often forced me to act and choose what they believed is best for me, even though that is not what I want at all. My opinion don't matter, it matter the least in this family. I've been told not to cry on them,to take after my sister who endured verbal abuses and never complained, to hold it in, and to not keep saying things about how my father treat my mom to them, even though I reached out to them maybe thrice in 5 years. I want to leave, but I feel like everyone is going to put the blame on me for breaking the 'peace' they kept so long for the sake of 'family'. My head hurts, I don't like it here, I want to leave.
