Did you get guilty when you first got addicted to yaoi?

Yo,im 24 now and i started yaoi like i was in 14 -15 years old not sure but i was quite young. But i tell you, im quite religious and kinda innocent back then so i get scared when i get into the sexual acts. So my friend (who is rotten to a core XD) introduced me to some yaoi and gave me warning but yea i continue to read it, i was like breathing nervously and heart beats fast lol cause sht was intense(the yaoi i read) i got wet and shit and came to a point, i keep reading yaoi and like masturbated like crazy about it. After that, i remember myself praying and saying i wont do it again. But body cant lie. It became a habit. Up until now, still same but not innocent anymore lol and not as much as guilty. I just laugh about it now.