Being aromantic is bad?

I'm struggling to falling in love with someone, I can't get a attraction romantically. I don't know why but I don't mind close with someone but it's hard to feel connected with them.

It's kinda torturing me, I also have tendency to be avoidant and hyper independent. But that's only on romantic relationship, my friendship is fine. I feel like romantic relationship is a chore, I need to take care of them, I need to talk to them everyday, I need to include them with with almost anything. It's just feels like something that I need to do, not something I like to do.

I want to love someone but my heart don't have any Sparks, I can only like someone but not enough to love them. And I often felt guilty because I can't love them as much as they love me