Vent rant hating myself when I become the thinker with philosophical soup questions and genuinely overload myself into tiredness. It all started at the shower, thinking, and I don't even remember how it started anymore. Pondered if there is inherent wrongness in killing and violence. Contemplated and wrote for 3-4 hours. it's almost 3 AM, I'm exhausted and it's frustrating --- genuinely exhausting to think that much, genuinely one form of overthinking for me why do I do this to my myself fml
