Venting

I remember my dad picking me up and throwing me on his bed and climbed on top of me and started slapping me. I remember mom watching and after a while she did stop him saying "stop, you'll kill her".
Years later she said that she didn't stay watching but when she heard him slapping me she ran and pulled him away. Now I don't know if I'm remembering things differently and she's right or if she's lying. I remember when she told me that my heart dropped and I wanted to cry so bad.

I've told her a lot of times what they did to me and they always say you're stuck in the past, or we never did that. And they always said you were a problematic child. I was a child! I feel so devastated for the me that could've been. Now I'm miserable.