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https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_secret_of_fragrance_kaizen_scan/

Please take it down, it can pose a threat to the website because the author is very possessive of her work and takes down every site with her work please delete it I begggggggg

THEY AVTUALLY TOOK THEIR UPLOADS DOWN TO THE SECRET OF FRAGRANCE AS I ASKED AND THEY WERE SO POLITE TOO!!! I REALLY HOPE THE OTHERS DO TOO anyways, ANOTHER WINNNNNNNN!!

So I am currently 17 and a female and I have my 2 very strict parents, I have always been "taught manners" the hard way usually with my dad hitting me and ngl but I was a pretty stubborn child but I was always treated harshly lemme go into detail: like once when I denied eating food (in grade 1or 2) they starved me for like 5 days only giving me tiki packets to just barely eat and water was free to drink anytime or when I would cry because my friends used to leave me they would shut me instead and when I couldn't eat my potatoes ( which is why I now hate chewing sounds)for dinner they would foise me to eat it ending me throwing it all up and I was also slow in studies as a kid but was never diagnosed with anything (I used to write words in mirror form sometimes) and as I grew up I also grew to be irritated and annoyed I still have focusing issues and because I talked to a guy once my dad hit me with a thick plank and it was bleeding from the inside and I had to take care of it myself and because of me talking to this boy I was removed from therapy (which they said that all signs of me were pointing to C PTSD) not to mention my mom snitches on me for misbehaving with her to him (he is abroad) which results him saying things like he doesn't care if I die or he will throw me out himself and that I will have to satisfy people as a prostitute (which is why I don't feel comfortable with him anymore) and recently because of my misbehaving with my mom which again was not that of a low scale from my side either (I was not holding back) and she recorded my argument from her phone and sent it to him and because of that he called and I ran to my bathroom and hid and he was shouting from the phone to throw her out I dong want her due to which I slept on the cold floor for 2 days, I also had a panic attack during this , and because all of this I'm always hyperviligent and on alert ( I have to turn on my fan in winters because I need background noise) and never feel like I could relax but after seeing videos on yt like imagine a kid with a trauma close to war vets I think I'm so foolish for thinking I'm at their level please someone tell me if I'm wrong.(They did more but this is the short version)

So I'm 18 and I'm in middle of my finals and I didn't have time to clean my period underwear...not intentional, so mom once again was in the mood was an argument and she started speaking about this matter INFRONT of my 15 year old brother and so I started to lash out and misbehave and them my mom threw hot burning tea on me not to mention I am kinda used to this now my dad also hurts me if I don't listen emotionally and physically both like he even told me once that if I was a porn star no would buy me still (though I was wrong that time) but that made me completely hate him and get nightmares of him assaulting me not to mention I'm Muslim too, and I'm reaching my breaking point very quickly since this is not normal for Muslims, I am now so used to this but when they do all that they expect me to apologize to them (but after painful begging and them accepting my sorry they act normal like nothing happened don't get me wrong I have everything a 18 yo wants I have a ps5 2 tabs everything but I never feel happy since I always have to go through this again I was also once forced to stay on the cold marvel floor of my bathroom in extreme winters because I misbehaved to mom and she video called my dad (he works abroad and I was having a trauma response) that I was misbehaving and I was almost kicked out and this happened because I was caught playing a online game (royale high) ) just to put it out there I was also almost diagnosed with c PTSD but my parents took me out ,so tell me what the hell should I do I'm not allowed to have a phone ,no internet for friends,a camera in my room like what do I do.

Guys as a Pakistani I'm so fuckin scared we are next after irana bombing like damn i dont wanna die I wish we all would come to our fucking senses ughhhhhhh pray for us guys , good luck to my fellow Pakistanis

guy this random guy who I suspect is my creep cousin mssg me on insta and I acted like it wasn't me cuz he was hela creepy knew my name and all but I didn't know him please mass ban him all of you please do this is the link
https://www.instargram.com/iatemyflesh/
Remove the r in the Instagram
And when you do please upbote the comment in the comments so I know you guys voted thank you so muchhhhh!