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I cry super easily like yesterday I cried about trees and I can't even figure out why. Anyway one thing I'm pretty insecure about is that when friends tell me what they've been through I cry really easily. I try really hard to hold it in because I don't want them to think I'm trying to make it about myself or that I'm being dramatic or something but sometimes it's impossible. So I wanted to ask if when you're trying to talk about something you've been through would you find it annoying if the person you're telling starts crying before you can finish?

When was the exact moment you realized something that changed how you lived from then on?

(TW: su!cidal thoughts) I realized recently I feel so much shame being perceived by others. I'll meet with an old friend and the entire next month I'm completely crushed by shame that they saw me. It's not just because of my lack of achievement, being seen at all humiliates me. I can't imagine living without this shame, it's been growing for as long as I can remember and trying to get rid of it feels impossible and dangerous to myself. I'm stuck now trying to figure out whether to accept the loneliness I feel all the time and try to live completely by myself or to keep meeting with people even though every time nearly kills me. This question's been on my mind for months and I haven't been able to do anything because of it. What would you do next if you had my mind? (yes, I'm seeing a therapist)

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I accidentally said "when I'm rich i'll get this" to my dad whose pretty insecure about his financial situation. He got me them next day even though we do not have the money for it right now but it's too late to return them so the best I can do is be happy and grateful. I was trying really hard to make today a good day and stay happy because thats what my dad spent so much for and just a ton of little things kept getting in the way. I feel guilty that my dad spent a bunch on something to make me happy and it took only a few inconveniences to wear that down. I'm constantly fighting every second to be happy and have been trying to fake it till i make it for years but now i just feel like i'm acting like i'm happy. The only times i truly feel happy is lowkey when i'm reading a good bl and even then i'm cockblocked by the "this isn't real. you'll never be able to have a relationship like this" thoughts whenever i get too excited.

MY LONELINESS IS KILLING ME literally tho how the hell does loneliness physically hurt this bad? it feels like I'm being crushed by an elephant and all i need to fix it is a true loves kiss? (im being a dramatic a hug would fix me for like a month) Humans are weird as hell. Anyway, do yall feel physical pain from loneliness too? and what do you do to fix it like without other people cause i'm forever alone

My brother's girlfriend (27) sucks but he's got mommy issues so I gotta be nice to her or I'll won't see him as often cause she'll avoid me and he's her slave. I have to be nice to her but she says horrible things and I feel like it's disrespectful to my values to ignore. Whether it's bullying her mom into drunk driving to get her ice cream at 1am or calling girls sl*ts and wh*res because she's insecure about her body. (not an assumption, she said she was insecure before insulting these women for an hour) I am disappointed I just stayed silent and didn't react at all when this happened last time but I've never stood up for my beliefs before. I don't like that about myself and I want to change and this is a good opportunity to practice.

How do I casually and calmly correct someone without making them hate me? It's mostly for myself and the people around us because I don't think she'll ever change.

Or is it like when you listen to a recording of your voice it doesn't sound like you at all

meow purrrr meow meow meow mlem mlem uwu

I caught myself on my knees with my forehead on the floor quietly saying "eeeeeeeeee" just now. (￣∇￣")