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I fear I unlocked a new level of separation anxiety, because wdym I can't watch any show by myself, I feel like I NEED someone to be present with me, it's not like haha it's just more fun type shit either I just feel really detached from shows if I'm not with someone...

Like I literally have YouTube channels dedicated to reacting to shows that I watch, I even got some subscriptions on Patreon for people who react to shows it feels like I've reached a point of insanity

I need to watch all the live action movies, I keep seeing people debating who's the better one, so I was wondering why IN YOUR OPINION your favorite is well, your favorite?

I love laying my head on people laps especially if they card through my hair. Its actually such a warm feeling, people say that I should grow out of it but like ??? I dont know, I think I will keep enjoying it.

What about you? Is there something people never think you like that you actually do?

I'm ngl Charizard is so absurdly overrated I need some cool Pokemons, I don't watch pokemon or play the games but I keep seeing those cards that are so hella expensive, anywhat who's a Pokemon you think isn't talked about enough

I consider myself someone compassionate and empathic most of the time, towards a lot of topics too. but when it comes to personal connections and friendships, I feel awfully unable to get attached to anyone, in fact, I get very uncomfortable when someone tries to get too close to me, I feel often incapable of feeling regret, sadness, or guilty for a relationship that I ended, most of the time, any of those feelings are mostly because a relationship I had affected *other* people, not myself or the person involved with me,,

does anyone feel like that? friendships are so hard to keep when you're just constantly uninterested in shit and you have to take it because you don't want to upset anyone...

What's a trope that you never see in media anymore / ever?

For me it's not as much of a trope as much it's representation but I really like stories that explore the mental side of internalized homophobia and / or self deprecation but I could never find stories with them,,

This question goes to any genre and any type fo stories

anytime I'm scrolling through YouTube past 12 AM I get those weird videos with captions like "this is your last chance to repent to god" or something and it creeps me out alot, why do they keep showing up even tho I keep clicking uninterested

I hurt myself alot by mistake while working because I get dizzy and out of focus easily, I'm also clumsy, but I also have a habit of picking at my healing wounds/acne/mosquito bites and they end up as scars

I was wondering if there's a way to like, kinda just heal those scars? Even if it's just partial, it just irritates me how many scars I have, some of them are old and some are newer but idk if that makes a difference

I've gotten much better are regulating my emotions, to an extent, I've been feeling very positive about life lately. I feel so happy today. Its a great day.

What small wins have you accomplished lately? Please let me know ! I love reading about people finding positivity in "insignificant" things

What's a character you find so overly shat on and villainized ?

P.S Yes sorry I just want to glaze my underrated characters...

lowk I keep getting told I smell like a toast or pillows that stay under the sun I don't know what that means but I think they're telling me I'm an omega chud

I feel so guilty for judging my siblings for the way they treat my parents. My parents are horrible people, I thought I had come a long way and that I learned to separate myself from them, but even after all this time, I keep thinking about them and worrying about how my siblings treat them.

Everyone reacts differently around trauma and abuse, I feel as though I've grown to normalize it towards myself, I expect people to hate me and point fingers at me while laughing, in a way, it's like telling myself that I'm the problem when I was the child being abused. I've dissociated their actions from them and now any time I remember how i had my head bashed against walls and body bruised up, I can't remember how they looked doing it. I also realize that a pattern appeared, that whenever we fight and it gets physical, I end up the one clinging to them and giving them affection.

My siblings are not the same, some of them are violent, I get why, and they vary in the severeness, my eldest sister whom I never even spoke to properly once in my entire life, resents my parents alot, my other sisters always tell me about the things she says about them, and even though both of us endured the same pain, we grew to have much different outlooks in life, and i feel like it's an instinct for me to feel repulsed anytime I hear how she speaks with our parents, I even judge her in my head, but seconds later, I realize it and feel extremely guilty

I guess even though my parents are horrible, a part of me understands why they're so fucked up in the head, my mum was literally born in an extremist traditionalist family during a war and my dad lived in poverty having to take responsibility of 13 siblings because my grandfather was a manwhore. They both endured so much and pretty much no one present in their life to be their anchor. I cant be mad at these people, they suffered so much, they're old now and fighting them just gets both parties hurt so I just stepped out of the house and went low contact with them. I don't get why my eldest sister bothers herself so much with them, or even go to such lengths to talk so horribly about them. I guess I'm still a prisoner in that house, because I can't find it in me to hate them the way she does,,