Here’s your dose:
> valer denies getting ever getting married and when he encouraged mehen to have a “normal” family, mehen also got distraught and changed the subject
> valer told arel his secret: he dubs Mehen as his last shred of humanity left. In the other timelines when mehen left him, valer goes insane and would burn the world to trash before killing himself. That’s how much impact Mehen had on him.
> Thus, he’a always anxious of Mehen leaving him one day, valer always asks mehen not to abandon him. Mehen would (jokingly) say he would but would end up taking it back whenever Valer becomes sorrowful over it.
> the author themselves said they cant ever picture both valer and mehen ever ending up with a wife. They tried with mehen but it ended up with valer getting jealous someone’s more important to valer than him.

were getting queerbaited me thinks i reaallly think its just loyalty and friendship, novel readers plz spoil me so i can stop hoping (i actually dgaf, shipping two fictional adults has no laws)