No shade, but riddle me this, will ya?

For the so-called endgame, I can’t get over the fact that their last “sex” scene was them going at each other’s throats, then fucking in that nasty toilet after TJ rubbed his fingers around the toilet bowl and shoving it up Ian’s mouth, then Ian thinking about Jo while this whole uncomfortable shit was going down.

That was so uncomfortable to fucking watch, my days. I mean, yeah, if Tjian was actually the endgame, why frame the entire story around Joian? Why give them the whole angsty narrative and the best emotional anchor (ch 98)? For the endgame, we didn’t even have one reasonable conversation coming from them both? The ML never apologized; he never said that he was in love with Ian, which makes it so fucking empty. How do people enjoy this??

Also after the time skip, it was so eerie the way Ian had his eyes closed while saying he loves TJ. Why do that then have him cry and clutch his chest and tell Jo that he certainly loves him. I really had zero expectations for Jo in the epilogue because I was fully set to see Tjian finally have these uncomfortable conversations and for him to say “I love you” to Ian only for me to get half of the chapter dedicated to Jo. I’m not complaining, I took it, but this is also a story I invested in, so I also wanted to see TJ’s development as a person, and Tian's development as a couple and I got nothing.

No shade, but riddle me this, will ya?