I’m so sorry you’re going through that :(( you are perfect the way you are, humans are so diverse and what you are insecure about someone else surely finds appealing. We are more critical on ourselves because that’s all we see 24/7 and that makes us pick apart the tiniest ‘flaws’. You should love yourself first before worrying about anyone else. Also, that is very normal anatomy, people usually wear push-up bras to seem perkier than they are but we are all human and it is normal. I hope you heal sis
I am so sorry you went through something so traumatic. I pray God instills peace into your heart, and heals your scars.
Self love is a journey which is different for everyone. You may not understand the emotions you feel currently, but God will make a way in which where you will find purpose in loving yourself.
I'm literally sobbing for you.

I have extreme body dysmorphia and think I will never be truly loved if I don’t look my best the worst trait of me that I deeply hate are my boobs since they were just growing they grew kinda saggy and it never changed I have b size with kinda saggy boobs and it’s just destroys my life and it made me so insecure since I got them I hate them soo much its literally holding me back from looking good it destroyed my whole body why couldn’t they have just been perky and I hate how I can’t change it ever and just have to accept it ???? I turned down so many relationships cause I thought if they were to see me naked they would be extremely turned off and feel disgusted and judge me for it im scared of any surgeries but I think that’s the only way I will ever feel pretty if not I will die alone it might sound dramatic but I tried my hardest always hiding my boobs as a teen and still it’s also due to trauma maybe I got touched and grabbed by my boobs as a kid by an old man and it made me super uncomfortable ever since anything that had to do with my breast :(