I empathize with what you mean. It would be a lie to say that I don't think like that anymore like Jun. It did get better after I had finally met the right people (people who actively listen and care for what you feel - with no ulterior motive).
I sometimes hesitate to talk about myself, mostly the bad things and think "I'm sure they're busy, so I shouldn't bother them. Maybe later." and that later never comes. Sure, trauma dumping is never healthy, since it literally indicates that the person has bottled those up for a long time and doesn't get the necessary caring responses from others. Therapy helped me a lot, which was funny to see Jun saying that he quit Therapy by keeping himself busy and ignoring it. Me too bro, me too. ANYONE READING THIS that is absolutely UNHEALTHY! It feels safe to do so, but in the long run that is absolutely dangerous.
So to summarize:
Talk, write or sing I don't care but get those feelings out there. Go to therapy or at least teach yourself some anxiety reducing methods like the 3-3-3 rule. Oh, and staying shut in your room could make you hate it sooner or later. Use it as a shelter, not a tree to take root in.
And finally something that I am still struggling with, but proudly less.
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"Everything might feel overwhelming and too much, but know that it feels amazing to at least breathe when it is less."
Thank you so much for leaving this here! I see that many other people (unfortunately) relate to Jun's as well as our problem...
Glad to hear that you are improving well, I know it took effort & much bravery to do so cause in a way, we are venturing into what we percieve as "dangerous & unstable" field that is connection. Acknowledging the problem is a first step, so I hope more people will get better as well, maybe through reading the series or even our conversations. I, too, will try to get better!!! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
(Also thank you for mentioning the thing about shutting in in room, it is something I personally guilty of, hehe I feel called out)
Yes, definitely well said<3
I truly believe that if there is a will, there is always a way. Being afraid, unsure or disheartened to take on that other hard journey in ones life is sadly part of it.
So even before and now that journey starts I am sending to you and anyone else reading our lovely conversation my utmost respect to how far you all have come and strength to keep on going. ヾ(╹◡╹)ﾉ~
I, too, am someone with fear-avoidant attachment style. Jun's character frustates me so fucking much, I can pick up everytime he starts blaming himself & feel self-conscious about everything, then push away the people around him including his own boyfriend. Personally, it always feels like my problems aren't something other people should bother themselves with. The notion of someone other than myself caring about my problem, listening & get invested to them just doesn't make sense. As I read this story, I realized how ridiculous it's all from 3rd person pov. Sharing sorrows and seeking comfort is natural. Humans, despite their infamous selfish nature, is also a foolishly caring creature.