I'm trying to understand all of this..

So.. to love someone means they have power over you. You loved him so he had more power over you because he could have ended things at any time and you were afraid that doing so would cut any connection you had with him?? And then you cuts ties with him yourself??

You never received love (power) back but if he were to be afraid of losing you too.. because he loved you back.. that makes you not compatible in the first place??? That would literally make you equals bro. Idek what's happening anymore.