No, not self defense. Self harm. There's no animals around just paper and bloody pens. I'm saying he cut up or stabbed his own arm.
As another poster said he didn't feel emotions and the next line is "everything sounds like it's underwater" Think of that Johnny Cash song "hurt".
I think he just wanted to feel something. Because he said he didn't understand laughing or crying.

Why was he covered in blood tho....?