Now all that’s consuming my thoughts is the beginning of this USA arc bc thinking back on it, after Heejae blows up his whole fucking career and the reputation he’s built (FOR GARAM), the first thing he does is stop by with Garam in tow to visit the literal founder of Gaeum one of the most famous Korean universities/conservatory who also happens to be his /first/ music teacher/mentor. Like, he is literally demonstrating to Garam his lineage and pedigree in the most overt way possible and implying; “yes my reputation and career may be tarnished but that has never mattered to me bc /LOOK/ at what made me and where I’m coming from.” Heejae then proceeds to continue peacocking to Garam by showing off the breadth and depth of his talent and connections via his homes and the sheer joy of others at his return to the stage even if they may despise him as a person. He is performing and touring at the most important and relevant venues in North America if not the world (which sell out for him!) with hundreds upon hundreds showing up to listen to his sound and yet here is Garam rejecting him outright and that is unfathomable. His nasty little remark when he makes Garam get off in the rain “everything worth seeing is right here anyway” in regards to the art museum where some of the most influential and monumental artworks are displayed as opposed to poor little him and his concert.This coming from the man who cries at the thought of not leaving behind a record, a legacy of brilliance long after he’s gone. It’s his biggest fear and most profound nightmare, the sound that is reaching out may never touch its twin flame, may never ring out for others to encounter its beauty forever. They both want Garam to listen but are afraid bc deep down, they know what it means when he finally does. No turning back, no holds barred. lol they’re so fucked! Heejae’s breakdown is magnificent! Drinking in your sad lonely room (when Garam used to be just there if you stretched your arm a little, on the sofa) listening to the song that proved to you that you do have a kindred soul, someone who understands the way you do… so of course Garam is going to lash out at someone who he deems irrelevant attempting to diminish who his literal soulmate is. Lmao they have the same sound! A sound you can’t even hear bc you’re not even on the same planet! A sound that can be heard even at his most weak, “when he doesn’t have full control of his body” and the sound is all for Garam! Neither of them can stand anything diminishing the other, not even themselves! Also That beautiful dream of that drop of sound, the essence of being, cradled in Garam’s palm in a water lily pond………..speechless omg………. I’m so curious to know how Kruger is going to play into all of this bc this is now the third time that he becomes noticeable (someone in the party when Heejae is staring at Garam drinking says “you don’t see Kruger much these days”) and he’s now listened to Garam’s sound and definitely knows Heejae’s.
(Sorry again for the wall of text, need to get these thoughts out, I fear these may keep coming until it’s over but I may run out of steam before then…I’ve never been so happy to be literate before…stay in school friends…the humanities ARE relevant…never kill yourself lmaoooo)
Now all that’s consuming my thoughts is the beginning of this USA arc bc thinking back on it, after Heejae blows up his whole fucking career and the reputation he’s built (FOR GARAM), the first thing he does is stop by with Garam in tow to visit the literal founder of Gaeum one of the most famous Korean universities/conservatory who also happens to be his /first/ music teacher/mentor. Like, he is literally demonstrating to Garam his lineage and pedigree in the most overt way possible and implying; “yes my reputation and career may be tarnished but that has never mattered to me bc /LOOK/ at what made me and where I’m coming from.” Heejae then proceeds to continue peacocking to Garam by showing off the breadth and depth of his talent and connections via his homes and the sheer joy of others at his return to the stage even if they may despise him as a person.
He is performing and touring at the most important and relevant venues in North America if not the world (which sell out for him!) with hundreds upon hundreds showing up to listen to his sound and yet here is Garam rejecting him outright and that is unfathomable. His nasty little remark when he makes Garam get off in the rain “everything worth seeing is right here anyway” in regards to the art museum where some of the most influential and monumental artworks are displayed as opposed to poor little him and his concert.This coming from the man who cries at the thought of not leaving behind a record, a legacy of brilliance long after he’s gone. It’s his biggest fear and most profound nightmare, the sound that is reaching out may never touch its twin flame, may never ring out for others to encounter its beauty forever.
They both want Garam to listen but are afraid bc deep down, they know what it means when he finally does. No turning back, no holds barred. lol they’re so fucked! Heejae’s breakdown is magnificent! Drinking in your sad lonely room (when Garam used to be just there if you stretched your arm a little, on the sofa) listening to the song that proved to you that you do have a kindred soul, someone who understands the way you do… so of course Garam is going to lash out at someone who he deems irrelevant attempting to diminish who his literal soulmate is. Lmao they have the same sound! A sound you can’t even hear bc you’re not even on the same planet! A sound that can be heard even at his most weak, “when he doesn’t have full control of his body” and the sound is all for Garam! Neither of them can stand anything diminishing the other, not even themselves! Also That beautiful dream of that drop of sound, the essence of being, cradled in Garam’s palm in a water lily pond………..speechless omg……….
I’m so curious to know how Kruger is going to play into all of this bc this is now the third time that he becomes noticeable (someone in the party when Heejae is staring at Garam drinking says “you don’t see Kruger much these days”) and he’s now listened to Garam’s sound and definitely knows Heejae’s.
(Sorry again for the wall of text, need to get these thoughts out, I fear these may keep coming until it’s over but I may run out of steam before then…I’ve never been so happy to be literate before…stay in school friends…the humanities ARE relevant…never kill yourself lmaoooo)