Sorry to tell you this…
Omg yes u get itttt. Even outside of the writing the way that the author simply illustrates what garam and heejae feel in moments of intimacy is so important. Heejae doesn't have that typical "worked up but still happy" look, he looks like the damn joker. Even if u dont understand the character's writing to a T you can still see how heejae's love doesn't hold the purity that garam's does
What happens
I shiver behind my screen...don't say it...
Deep writing and beautifully illustrated emotions in a Kbl...my eyes watery frfr
Garam won’t stop him and they’ll carry on with the sex, but I remember heejae saying that he won’t hurt him, Im not sure if he’ll say it this time tho
I usually drop stories when I feel that there's unreasonable and unnecessary SA, but I think this is one of the few stories that doesn't justify SA and shows you how uncomfortable it is for garam?
I hope garam stands for himself and stops the unc from eating that hole, because he was like telling him to stop and added "genuinely" which just makes it like SA for me, but I just meant it in the way that it's written from the start, it shows that the relationship isn't healthy, the dynamic isn't supposed to work out but somehow it does, it shows heejae's possessiveness and somewhat obsessive nature and it's not hiding it behind some "sexy" or "hot" lens to make people try to and understand him. In the same way that garam is relentless and keeps clinging to the professor no matter how many chances heejae gave him. They're the result of a relationship too toxic, fixing itself along the way, reshaping and redefining what it is over time.
To me, a story that's comfortable being toxic and unhealthy and admits the characters flaws, wrong doings, and faults is better than a story that tries to justify the seme's actions behind a 'sad past'. Maybe that's why I don't mind it as much in this story, it's still a little disturbing to me but this one feels more realistic to a relationship like theirs.