I just can't side with MC

I'm sorry I might drop this, that backstory triggered me lmao and MC going about loyalty to GANGSTERS is such bs, he just thinks that way because his new boyfriend (who he met less than a month ago) is one of them. Like, seriously, what have those guys done for him that meant for him to stay? Realistically, they only care for him to stay so he doesn't snitch. Even if they catch him he may not stay alive for long. Both the MC and the ML are just spewing bs after bs and they're being either obtuse or naïve thinking they're going to have any type of normal romance.