Why is this the exact way I feelLike i know the prof is acting like a dick but them as a couple is so my taste i can't. Even tho I knoe garam be suffering. Its like when its good between them its so GOOD that I just wanna overlook the bad which is prob how garam feels lol.
my first love was like this - incredibly shitty person who knew it and didn't change. In fact knowing someone loved and suffered for them made them worse. I can tell you to this day irl I could never really love anyone else again without deep wariness again, and lowkey that immersion makes me hate heejae for garam (I like them as individuals tho)
I want them together because I'm selfish enough to wish that garam can just suck it up. That makes me a shitty person who just wants to see the happy side of everything while wishing one individual will suffer for my wants but that's just me. I feel like this story will fuck up my mind because i really like the prof and i want him to be happy but that happiness will also cost someone their happiness. Thats rlly fucked.