I really feel for jaeyi's childhood

I can relate to jaeyi's mindset of not being able to find meaning or attachment in anything and being so willing to let it go for the sake of others, my childhood was like his (minus my sibling being chronically ill lol) with my wants and needs being overshadowed by a high maintenance sibling, and like jaeyi, that also made me detached myself from everything. Even my own relationships outside of my family, I was just waiting for when it would inevitably end or be taken from me for someone else's sake. So jaeyi is a very relatable character to me and his selfish brother being introduced and targeting ideum hits too close to home and I HATE him that being said I really hope jaeyi doesn't become obsessive and toxic cuz the story has been really good up till now and I think we have enough of those stories out there