Usually I just cried it out gang, honestly I tried journaling but I couldn't find the words to write or how to express it all I know it doesn't have to be perfect seriously I just couldn't reply
Bought a snack on the side road on my way to my aunt house (it was midnight), we arrived there and I opened the food box, small black roaches came out of the box like crazy, there wasn't any of the food that I bought earlier, mind you it was hot when I bought it, catched one in my hand but it disappear :/ reply
i'm contemplating whether to drop out of my university, tomorrow is the start of the orientation and I couldn't move there yet and I don't have enough preparation because of my family financial situation, I knew this was coming anyway as I grew up hard and financially unstable.
well if I drop out again this will be my second gap year, I feel so heartbroken gng I was so excited to start turning the page but this problem always held me back, I can't do shit, I just don't want my parents to make any sacrifices anymore. sorry for venting in this pay gorn site, it's my safe place
your voice calling for help that I used to hear every night I still hear them the night where I can't sleep. grandpa, it used to annoy me just how you need every assistance in everything you do even when you don't seem to need it, you wanted attention and care, I ignored you because I needed rest and peace, I figured it's the same as the rest of the house.
I still regretted it, the last night you called for help, I didn't give you the attention you wanted, it still eats me to this day because in the morning you were long gone, the house was silent and quiet.
It didn't come to me just how terrible it comes to be until I saw your emaciated body in the funeral home, all that is left of you is weathered skin and sticking bones.
I'm sorry for everything I didn't do I'm sorry for ignoring you sometimes when you needed attention and care I know my excuses didn't justify anything, I cried thinking about your last moments alone when I could've been there with you through it all, I'm sorry I'm sorry, it's too late to feel this regret deeply and I missed you so much
why does my lowkey evil situationship (male) keeps coming back bruv, we haven't interacted for almost a month and I thought I was a free woman.
for context we're the same age (I fear it's hets boring I know but bear with me) we knew each other from our mutual friends on discord community long short story we got rlly close and knew about each other a lot, I deadass thought we were soulmate yknow, meant to be since we have so much in common (we were aiming for the same goal too) we do that boring situationship activity such as playing games together, spend time together (online of course), study together, and have those late night deep talks or whatever.
I developed some feelings for him high key, mind you I was never a relationship sucker person (I never dated anyone before) but man he's pretty gentle with words, never speak little of me and always keeps me at bay whenever I'm feeling down (did I say he's lowkey fine?) the point is I wanted to shoot my shot but I'm was afraid and don't know how to do it since I'm never good at expressing my feelings (I believe in 'women don't chase' mindset, don't slime me)
eventually I never did, I was insecure and unsure because of his mixed signals and don't wanna make a fool of myself and lost my self-respect.
well life happens and we fell apart, he barely text me back and he got pretty cold at some points, I got so depressed and sad because of that haha wtf, after that I don't reach first out again
almost half a year pass, entrance college examination season came and he texted me again!!! he wanted to study together again and I thought I was free!! just pull me out of my misery
it's 1 AM in here i got job tomorrow but i don't feel like sleeping and my phone is dry as hell, to my dear mangago user tell me what's your drag path and who found you (if anyone ever found you at all)
did how keep yourself happy
