blanchett's Things

I thought about dying
because your smile was so pretty
And whenever someone can’t help but think about dying
I’m sure it’s because they’re taking living too seriously
I thought about dying
because I hadn’t met you yet
and because people like you were born into this world
I came to like it a little bit more
And if people like you are living
maybe it’s okay to place a bit of hope in this world, too

i've been friends with this girl for a couple years now. a few weeks ago i started feeling a little nervous and blushy when i was talking with her. i think i like her but theres probably no chance that she likes me. sure, i've got a nice face and good grades, but i'm loud and my laugh is ugly. i've been getting a little more concious near her, like trying to be a little more quiet and laugh prettier when shes nearby,,,, but i kind of feel hopeless. like she wouldnt ever like me back.
should i abandon my feelings for her or keep being hopeful and try to get closer to her? if i do so, how?

you have been invited to mangago high school! what will you do?