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Let me say right away, this is really good. I can tell that the author put a lot of effort into research, and making sure they represented things to the best of their ability. I have multiple disabilities, I’m completely blind in one eye, and my other eye isn’t too great either. I have ADHD, OCD, and CPTSD. And I also use hearing aids for my Auditory Processing Disorder due to being almost completely deaf in one ear. So basically I was really excited about this manga. And I did see myself in the seme (I’m bad with names, sorry) a lot in early volumes. The isolation I felt because it was so hard to talk to people was incredibly impactful. I often chose to just not talk to people at all like the seme
I know that falling in love is not the cure to complex layers of trauma built up over years, but it’s fun to read stories like this one and fantasize about it. I have no problem with the uke helping heal a lot of the seme’s insecurities. That’s cute and nice. I think though I am really frustrated with the seme’s lack of agency. We know almost nothing about him as a person. Does he have hobbies? He played football for a while but that was mostly just to get him around other people with hearing impairments. What about how he gets along with his family? We saw a bit with the mom, and we heard about the dad briefly, but there’s a lot there we have no idea about. We barely even see the main couple together. I myself have lots of complicated relationships, hobbies, passions, etc which don’t revolve around my disabilities. The one guy (names are hard I’m so sorry) felt like the most “real” person to me because he likes soccer and video game development without any tie to his deafness. I just wish we had more story lines that don’t revolve around the disabilities of the characters.
Also also, the seme’s boss makes me really mad. If a non disabled person told me how to see my own disabilities, I’d be really pissed off. They don’t know me, and they don’t know all the complicated things swirling in my brain all the time.
Sorry for the long rant. It is a good manga, absolutely and I’m excited for the next volume, I just wanted to share my thoughts

I used to have in my notes which chapter uke crashes seme’s broadcast so I can save myself the embarrassment but now I have no idea. Anyone know?

Hello, does anyone know whereabout we are in the novel right now? Thank you

Does anyone have a novel link for this one? Thank you

Ok everyone’s talking about how stupid the MC is and I totally agree, he was completely unless, but like what about the Crown Prince???? That man literally refused to help solve the murders because he was being petty. Like that man is the future ruler and he doesn’t care about his citizens at all. And he also made a passing comment about how he knew the Duke was involved from the very beginning, but I guess he just didn’t care??? Like he said that he knew the Duke was targeting people who look like the Uke before people even knew about the ropeman. Like that’s actually insane???? Some if not most of those deaths are partly on him. Also the uke was stupid for not asking more questions to the crown prince, but the crown prince also didn’t communicate with the uke at all. Asking why about the one night stand, who the father is, that they are literally getting married, or even about how he is the father. Like that’s just as frustrating as the uke in my opinion

CW: suicide attempts/ suicidal ideation
Hi, this story just filled me with feelings and I needed let that out some way, and why write in a diary when I could instead post it as a comment underneath a manga…
I was 11 when my sister tried to kill herself. She didn’t, but she spent years after that teetering on the edge. (She’s good now, she’s in therapy and she doesn’t go to that “place” as often). And I was 20 when my mom tried to kill herself, and when she failed she took off, wanting to disappear and never see us again. My dad found her and my mom has also now spent years in therapy. She promises me that she will never “try” again. And I myself have been dealing with suicidal thoughts for years now too. I never tried anything though, because I remember the pain from with my sister and mother. I think that’s the only reason I held on. I didn’t want to put them through those same feelings. The scene in the manga when the guy tells the other guy (sorry I’m terrible with names) that he had almost killed himself made me hurt so much inside. Something about the way the author handled his expressions felt so real, I could feel those feelings all over again. It’s a truly horrendous thing, to hold a loved one close as they tell you that they don’t want to live. That you can hug them right now, only because they decided to stay. You came so close to losing a person you love so much, and you didn’t even know until they told you. It’s a pain I couldn’t give to my loved ones. I also don’t want it to sound like I blame people who have tried to kill themselves or have gone through with it. Like I said, I’ve been in that same spot. I know all too well the cost to keep living. I’m just also saying that I decided to stay alive because I didn’t want to cause others pain.
Oh wow, that was a lot to just drop on someone reading this, but I needed to get it out. And I hope someone reading this, who has been through similar situations, finds some relief knowing you aren’t alone.

I think this story is a really good example of tragedy in its truest literary form. Both the ml and fl have traits that would probably end up being fine in other stories, but in this specific situation it’s causing all this pain and heartache. The ml grew up not being loved, or seen for who he is. He was treated as if he was dead. But he also sincere and wholehearted with his love because that’s what he craves. Any other story that would just make him a cute puppy dog ml. And the fl was hurt and abused constantly in her past life and the one time she found love, she was forced into killing her reason for living. She was taught to be selfish in love or else she will be betrayed. If she was selfish with Theodore their relationship probably would’ve ended better. But then she was forced into the exact situation that ruins both her and ml. I am not necessarily defending her, but I am not condemning her either.

I love the aromantic representation! I’m pretty sure I’m aro, so it made me super happy to see a character that’s similar to me, and for them to be one of the leads in a romance manga is awesome!

I’m so in love with how silly the last couple chapters were

So, when I read this for the first time four years ago, I had just gotten diagnosed with ADHD, and it hadn’t really sunk in yet. So when I saw that Skyler also had ADHD, I just kinda ignored it beyond the obligatory thought of “oh same as me”.
But I just re read the story, and it nearly destroyed me. Obviously it’s not the best representation. In fact, it’s kinda hurtful. But I think that’s why I was drawn to it? I saw a lot of myself in Skyler, and his relationship with his disability. In the past four years, I’ve been in a lot of therapy (something I hope both the main characters of this story do), and I realized that a lot of the sources of my trauma were because of my ADHD. So in the story, when Skyler’s disability was constantly referred to as him being “born sick”, I would break down in tears. Because that what I thought for so long. That I was sick, that there was something wrong with me, and that I deserved all the hate I got when I was younger. But that’s not true. It’s so not true. And I’m just heartbroken that to Skyler, all ADHD is to him is it’s part of the reason his mom hates him. I just wish that in this next part of his life, he learns to except it, and that ADHD isn’t just bad, there is also good. Anyways, sorry this was so long, I just need to ramble.