ajji's Things

I honestly find it hard to tell whether it's my real feelings and thoughts or I'm just fooling myself and made up those things to make me feel better. I kinda don't know myself in a way that I'm confused between what's true and what's lie.

I'm always the second— if not, the last option but I have never been the first. Like what's the feeling of having someone who deeply cares for you and treat you as a family? I have my favorite person but sadly, we do not have any connections anymore.