Deputy manager has taken the bait~ For what I don’t think we’ve seen yet. He was still well when the fight happened.
I think for Yuwon, Kim Seongmin was his last hope. When he was younger he mentioned he wanted to believe that good people existed, and he could still see the beauty of people around him.
But day in and day out, I wonder if he was contemplating suicide at the time, staring at the ground from the roof, smoking. Seongmin still stuck by him even when he was getting bullied, and if Dohun hadn’t shown up I think he would’ve clung onto him to heal. I think to Yuwon, Seongmin was the “last good person” (Yuwon knows Dohun isn’t good, and can’t trust him; he’s killed people after all), which he was why he was so desperate when he disappeared with no notice.
So I think the face Yuwon showed Dohun when he was accusing Seongmin was “utter despair”, losing hope.
The insecurity Dohun felt afterwards was most likely that Dohun realized Yuwon still has expectations in others and people, he has needs outside of the ones Dohun can provide, he was shaken by the fact he might not know Yuwon and his greater good as well as he thought he did.
I feel like Yuwon’s behaviour of banging his head against the wall made Dohun realize 1. How close he was to the edge when he met him. 2. That he suffered badly alone during the years he was gone.
Dohun self-comforts with illusions, so he was able and happy to maintain the semblance of a functioning relationship while Yuwon was kind of spiraling, feeling alone while Dohun disengaged.
I’m very curious if, as Dohun feels Yuwon slipping he pushes more on the sex to be able to artificially pretend he’s “happy”, maybe that’s where it started to get violent and rough? Or Dohun realizes the resentment Yuwon’s held for everything and tries to take it on?
I want to see what Dohun actually did when he met his dad while Yuwon snuck out.
Gahhhhhh i love it so much!!!! Can’t wait for the next chapter~~
I wonder if Dohun gave up on the Seongmin matter with Yuwon after that? Maybe he just brought up the footage with Seongmin instead (which is why Seongmin asks Yuwon if they’re a thing) and Yuwon’s innocent rejection was the final straw, since maybe Seongmin was staying at that company for him?? I guess we’ll see.
It could still very well be that Dohun is unrelated to Seongmin’s dismissal.
i had the same sort of idea about the expression being despair… however i considered another possibility where yuwon actually made a purehearted determined expression, like “seongmin is definitely not that kind of person,” except he’s saying this with his face and not his words. i think this sort of stubborn/positive expression would make dohoon more dumbfounded than a look of true despair, which is further supported by what dohoon asks yuwon afterwards: “just who is seongmin to you?” dohoon also states that this particular expression was hard to look at, and this made me wonder more since dohoon usually has no trouble looking at yuwon regardless of whether yuwon has a negative expression. im thinking its sort of like when you don’t want to burst someone’s bubble because they’re happy about something or believe something to be true (even when you know it’s not), so you just don’t say anything to preserve the naïveté (like not telling kids santa isn’t real). just a thought. obv yuwon could’ve made any expression, we don’t know for sure
Oooh~ it could very well be! As always, I’d have to reread the chapter from Yuwon’s perspective to see what fits best. Maybe, as we discover what actually happened with Seongmin, we’ll get to revisit the conversation? In any case I hope so; thank you for sharing your thoughts!
I’d waited for a while to read all the chapters at once and wow, so satisfying…
Ohhhh so Dohun admitting he’d killed them was something Yuwon erased from his memory. Subconsciously though, Yuwon must’ve remembered. “He really will do anything to get what he wants”; he’s must’ve been on edge.
I wonder if the father was the one who arranged for both of them to meet again, as a reward for Dohun’s compliance. It’s way too convenient for Dohun to be transferred to Yuwon’s branch.
I can just imagine the word “destiny” echoing again and again inside Dohun’s head when he smirks at Yuwon after meeting again.
Indeed, Dohun is so blind to Yuwon’s emotional realm. He thinks simply ensuring his survival and comfort is enough. There’s this thickness, and the intensity of wanting to make up for lost time. Yuwon meanwhile is incredibly paranoid bc why now? He’s happy but cmon, you couldn’t explain your circumstances to him? You tell him you waited, it’s all for him but you don’t trust with the truth.
Dohun, whether he realizes it or not, still sees Yuwon as a bit below him, someone that can’t be trusted to define or manage themselves bc to him they’re meant to revolve around each other anyway, why won’t Yuwon stick to the script?? Yuwon also has that tendency to keep everything inside until it explodes, but honestly there’s so much pressure built up i don’t even think talking civilly would have relieved it. And omg Yuwon bangs his head on the wall even alone…He’s been miserable so long it’s a habit now;;;; I wonder if Seongmin ever caught him??
Maybe I should write a fic about that…
It’s truly lucky they didn’t kill each other when Yuwon tried to leave.
Although now…there is definitely absolutely no way he is getting away. He marked them both…will it be Dohun acting pathetic and telling him everything he went through to meet him again?
I’m so curious to see how they resolve this; maybe they’ll elope or something and Dohun will embezzle as much money as he can get away with to escape and marry Yuwon in like Bali or Thailand or something. Could his backup be to fake his death??
Ahhhhhh I need to reread the first chapters again to contrast the information!!!
Should I read now or marinate more since you waited too?
Oh by waited I mean I was at ch.73 last time. But this chapter ended on a sex scene so overall, even though they’re both effed mentally, at least physically rn they’re satisfied. It’s a good point to read up to!
Dude. Geonwoo is seriously the first breath of fresh air that Seonho has had since the start. Bro wants nothing sexually from him and is just his friend, which is exactly what he needed after being seen like a piece of meat from EVERYONE (even the zombies). I hope this guy makes it; it really would be nice to have straight up just a decent guy around to ground Seonho and his sanity.
The problem with good guys is they die early in apocalypse movies, bc others lives are more important than theirs;;;;;
YEAH YOU TELL HIM SOUN!! He’s nothing but a coward that slinks around; but
don’t get yourself killed plssssss;;;;;
Your husband’s coming to save you;;;
It hit me that the hidden camera in the office tree is like his dad’s; to be able to tell who’s twofaced about yuwon.
My poor baby Yuwon;;;;;
You really endured so much shit; he’s so mentally strong, handling all that by himself.
That tired weary look when you’re at the end of your rope…you don’t even need to see his face to tell.
It’s no wonder he ended up paranoid in the future. No one has ever done these kinds of things with no ulterior motive for him, ever. They really crushed Yuwon with the « no free lunches ».
Dohoon must feel bad, that he’s seen as this ‘person that must be taken care of’ in Yuwon’s eyes.
Even when Yuwon is being ‘weak’ by submitting to everyone, he’s still protecting him.
This entire episode Dohoon is always looking at Yuwon’s back, relying on him.
He must have started wanting to be able to help and could no longer stay put. So he most likely left so he could become a protector.
It’s interesting how he dreamed of it before, Yuwon protecting him and then realized Yuwon was the one needing protection, not just in school, but through everything.
Yuwon isn’t willing to hurt others to get what he needs.
So Dohoon will find a way.
Yuwon feels like a mom, not just Dohoon’s mom, but this selfless sacrifice out of love really hits hard.
To Yuwon, Dohoon is family.
Poor Yuwon…
I love him so much…
The new word of the day is Apostasy!!
an act of refusing to continue to follow, obey, or recognize a religious faith. Or defection.
Apostasy!
I think it’s one of the first times I’ve seen a work take it past the mindbreak lol
Was not expecting the kids to be furry too, also thought it was a dream sequence.
Kinda funny for him to negotiate release, and then go hunt them down again. He says it wasn’t revenge but I bet he made the same amount of children as the knights lol Petty Leon.
But gotta admit I love me some old man hole.
Yum, ‘twas a good meal!
Damn, Xinlu really doesn’t give a shit about Tae, does he?
He could have turned Tae deaf by shooting right next to his ear like that.
I guess he’d find it darkly funny though: “Look, Taeui, we match!”
All of this is defo just to give the middle finger to Ilay. Especially with such a serious injury.
To Xinlu, Tae is a prize to be won.
Poor Ilay, so close you almost touched him. He’s gotta be stewing in hatred right about now.
Taeui feeling so conflicted…I love itttt
At the same time, I was always really curious about Xinlu’s home territory, ever since we heard about his past;
since we’ve only ever seen Riegrow’s so far: the base, brother’s home, etc.
I hope we get to explore what made Xinlu the man he is today, and that Jaeui doesn’t find himself in another weaponmaker’s hands (bc lbh he defo survives).
Xinlu just want to see Ilay expression when taeui got snatched from him, it's not pure love imo. He just want a revenge, and yeah he got that
Dohoon…I have to apologize to you.
I thought you were some stereotypical toxic seme, some sort of mastermind and we were going to see what formed you, but it turns out you were also manipulated this whole time.
It really was your upbringing.
You really see how the blocks that formed his worldview fall into place. Transactional relationships.
Writing your name, sex makes one happy, give back.
You were just doing what you could with what you had at your disposal.
They were just kids, man.
Gu dohun’s brainwashing being the thing that convinced yuwon they were on the same side. Kinda bittersweet.
Some sort of link/parallel from Yuwon to his mother. So far not much, but most likely because they were the only two he ever cared about.
Did he forget her face? Or did she ultimately also not matter to him?
The teacher and Yuwon are the only people whose faces are visible.
Also how does his childhood book end?
It was burned, but if it’s directing his actions until now he must have read it over and over again. His obsession with a happy home must come from there. Is it a happy ending? Or do the elk and tree die together? You can’t really beat humans.
Give back what you receive. I thought that meant Dohoon really was the one who executed them, but maybe it really was his father; btw Dohoon’s dad is missing a part of his ear, wonder what happened?
…was Dohoon referring to Hanseob when he was telling Yuwon that he shakes when he wants sex? Implying that he had withdrawal symptoms?
Just gotta make sure Juyeon doesn’t allow him to choke himself to death. But I think MC at this point is too impulsive. He’s gonna run -.-
Anyway, see yall next shift!
Now what could Dohun have possibly asked from Director Jin? Something he’s done before…
Burying the evidence of a murder?
Hmm maybe related to continuing the family line; impregnating a woman and passing it off as Dohun’s son? But Dohun talks so well, what a charmer.
We also do not know what Dohun had planned for Hanseob before the name-carving(that’s what I’m calling it from now on) happened.
He didn’t seem agressive at all, on the phone in the car back then, so I figure it was more of a ´the guy will cause his own death through drugs anyway’ let time do its thing type of approach.
But it really was luck that allowed Dohun and Yuwon to meet again!!!! I thought the father had given him a reward.
Dohun has a right to call it destiny. This loverboy has gone all in on Yuwon. I’d guessed because he killed for him, and he’s literally told us this whole time. Yuwon is his DESTINY. No wonder he didn’t want to let him go, he’d prefer to die than for that to happen. A recipe for an extremely unhealthy and codependent relationship~
Now what was up with those texts he sent Yuwon about coming home early?