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Gosh, The FL really had bad hair, both in the promo and manhwa, in the promo, it look like a block, and in the manhwa, it look like she is been strike by lightning, her maid hair even look neater than her

IDK why people think turn a blind eye to some 'things' would make them feel better. You don't want to waste time feeling anxious? What kind of BS is that, not knowing would only make the doubt grow stronger, and you would spend each passing day wondering and feel more anxious, better get hurt once and for all, unless all you want is physical pleasure, don't bother then.

Guys i read the novel, Trashta said this 'No matter what people say, I never cheated with his majesty, The Empress never loved him, so it's not an affair'. Sovieshit also has the same logic, he never betrayed Navier, Navier didn't love him, so she wouldn't be hurt no matter what he did with Thrasta. That's why he never reflected on his action, he never regretted nor ask for forgiveness. Even at the end of the novel, the only thing he regretted is Divorcing Navier.

Hilise awakened her power at the age of 19, and she always come back to life at that exact time

1st Life : After she is awaken, Hilise became Ricardo shadow, Ricardo pretended that it was his power, Hilise can't control her power perfectly yet, every time she make mistake, Ricardo lash out at her, Hilise kept apologizing, One day Ricardo came home drunk and mad at Hilise and push her off the stair, he reflexively grab her hand but then he let it go, Hilise surprised seeing Ricardo intentionally let go of her hand, didn't use her power to save herself, fall of the stair and died

2nd life : Hilise denied that Ricardo kill herself, saying that it was an accident. Again she became his shadow, she is locked up in her room, and Christian reach out to her, they became engaged. When Diego was away, christian asked her to moved to his mansion lying that he got Diego permission. One day Hilise overheard Christian talking to his aide that he got tired of pretending to love Hilise, Gabriel is annoying but Hilise is so pathetic that it was boring, he said after they got married and have a child, he is gonna kill her, Hilise run away from the spot, Christian catch her and asked her if she heard it, he purposely let the door open so she can hear them, but Hilise denied that she didn't hear anything, Christian scorned her 'I expected you would run away from me by now, but you are more stupid that I thought, even if I'm gonna kill you, you won't run away from me cause you love me, pathetic'. After that Christian show his true self, he abused Hilise verbally, but Hilise didn't want to believe that Christian kindness in the past is a lie, she didn't gave up and stay for 6 month. She got latter from her family saying they waiting for her at home, she then run away and get chased by Christian, there monster appeared, Hilise could used her power to defeat the monster, but she think it was not belong to her so she didn't want to use it, so she died.

3rd life : Hilise think that her powers is the problem so she let Diego experimented on her to transfer her power to Ricardo, Diego using blood gem, it was really painful, everyday her body getting weaker, but there is no sign of Ricardo awakening, Hilise died alone.

4th life : Hilise still believed in her family, that Diego didn't know the effect of the blood gem, even though he always ignored her but he is still kind to her (in her 3rd, Hilise can't even move a finger so Diego fed her the blood gem himself and she call that kindness). So she told Diego about her regression that, the blood gem is killing her, Diego brush it off as nonsense, then he said 'If it was true, isn't that for the better, since the blood gem is proved to be effective'. Diego thinking by feeding the blood gem instead of killing Hilise right away is some kind of mercy. Every time Hilise begging her father but his father told her it was for the sake of the family, Hilise determined to do everything for her family, but the pain she has to go trough after eating the blood gem is not what she signed for. Diego forced Hilise to eat the Blood gem. then he became impatient, he cut Hilise skin and insert the blood gem into the wound, than every part of her body where the blood gem is inserted became to transform and mutated, she became a monster, Ricardo and Gabriel and all the employed look at her with disgust. Hilise ask Diego in her heart 'isn't it faster to kill her'. One day Ricardo visit her saying 'this not what he intended, that he didn't know it would turn out like this' so Hilise begging him to help her, Ricardo said he would talk to Diego, but after that day nothing change, and Ricardo never visited again. Hilise died becoming a monster

5th : When she goes back, Hilise crying asking what she did wrong, she did everything for her family, all her want is just a little bit of their affection' then she run away, Diego chase her, at the moment Hilise still thinking maybe her father is chasing her not because he is afraid that peole would know about her awakening, maybe he is really worried seeing his daughter run away while crying. Because Hilise didn't see where she is going, She almost run off by the carriage, Violeta is the owner of the carriage, she offer Hilise a hand, because of her warm hand, Hilise decide to ask for help but before she could say anything, Diego grab her and silenced her, Hilise tried to resist using her power, Rose bloomed everywhere but Diego power is stronger, he make it look like it was his own power not Hilise. Hilise than got locked up. The more she tried to resit the ore Diego brutally beat her up. After a year, Hilise began to transform into the monster. One day, Diego drag her out of her but she has no strength, so Diego carries her, Hilise thinking that it was her first time getting hugged by Diego, Diego was in hurry that he didn't even care when her leg crash something and the bones broken, since her body already mutated, she feel no pain. Diego locked her up in secret room with no light and for days she is starved, and when she think she is gonna die like this, Axion open the door and rescued her. Diego was thrown in prison. In Axion mansion, she is treated with care, Axion tried to heal her by removing all the blood gem that has been inserted inside her body. But Hilise mind already broken, she is only staring off into space, even self harming her body, thinking that the blood gem is still inside her so she scratch her skin to get it out. When Violeta visit her almost everyday, Hilise began to open up, Christian also visit her and ask Hilise to come to his mansion, Hilise refused, though his words sound sweet but his eyes held no warms. In the day of Diego trial, Ricardo stopped Hilise carriage, he shouted to Hilise that everything was her fault, he said he would forgive her if Hilise released Diego from the prison but Hilise knew none is her fault. In the court, Axon had an urgent matter so he left Hilise for a while. Axion mother released Diego from prison, than he killed all Axion people who is guarding Hilise using his power, he then strangled her with his own hands saying that everything was her fault, then Axion saved her. After that Hilise became even more unstable, she is having nightmare of Diego strangled her, she can't sleep without medicine and began sleep walking, she throw thing at everyone who goes near her, so only after Hilise fall asleep Axion can goes to her, he held her hand and hug her every night. One day Violeta visit her, she confessed one year ago she knew about her situation cause she has the eyes of truth, but because she is busy with Margot, she forgot about it, it's only when she and Axion investigated about Margot experiment, they found Diego trace, it was Margot blood that make her suffer, so she ask for her forgiveness, Hilise feel bitter, she think Violeta kindness was driven by pity and guilt, she shut herself off even more, thinking that Axion also pity her, but at that point Axion already fall in love with Hilise. During Violete birthday party, Hilise came, she feel unfair that she is the only one who suffer, it was Margot blood who create the mutated monster but no one blame him, in her anger Hilise strangled Violeta, when she came to her senses, she crying, Violeta didn't blame her but all other family want her to be executed since she is becoming the mutation. Axion defended her and didn't gave up on Hilise, while searching for the cure, Axion found out that his mother also involved in Margot experiment. During his absence, Axion family Elders conspired with Ricardo, tied Hilise and throw her at Inoaden land, she is died. When Axion found out, he kills everyone involved in Hilise suffering.

6th life : Hilise succeed on running away, and vowed to kill Margot, she ruins Axion plans to rescued Margot. Axion fed up with her, got mad and call her stupid attention seeker, it slapped Hilise conscience, in her last life, she tried to kill Violeta, and this life, she tried to kill Margot, where none of it is their fault, Margot also a victim of the experimentation. Hilise then visit Axion and say sorry and she would help him to find Margot, when Axion found out that Hilise is a run away and has no place to stay, he let her stay with him, he even teach Hilise how to use her power properly, the reason he call her attention seeker because that's how Diego taught her, Diego only teach her to be flashy, for Ricardo 'show talent'. When they rescued Margot, he is already in a worse state. When Margot know that his blood has been used to experiment on people and animal then turn them into monster, he agreed to let him be experimented on to search for the cure. But after a few years, all the mutation back to normal naturally, and Margot already weak from all the experiment died (not sure yet how Hilise died)

7th life : This time Hilise rescued Margot and she met Axion at the basement, and they go to Kalikia together, using what she knew from the past, she gave Axion the information, Axion believed her unconditionally. Long story short, Hilise was preparing to became the Head of Inoaden, Margot want to give her the tears gem as a gift, when he is waiting, Gabriel killed him then shouted that it was Hilise doing. Hilise lock up in prison, she is willing to take all the blame if only her brother and father visit her in prison or just a little sorry from Gabriel is enough, but when Ricardo visit her, he ask her to die for Gabriel, Hilise realized then no matter what she did, her family would never acknowledge her, so she kill everyone. Axion tried to stop her and say he believed that Hilise didn't kill Margot, if she is going to do this, why she didn't plead innocence, Hilise answered it was because she is foolish, she can't let go of her lingering feelings thinking her family would love her too. She ask Axion to kill her but seeing Axion despair, she realized it was too cruel, so she killed herself.

Seeing how he assign an escort to protect his wife, look like he is not utterly powerless, in the novel he also ordered the butler to take care of his wife, why he didn't do the same in the past, he didn't tried to do anything but letting the one who threaten his wife and children do everything he pleases. and he also has a loyal subordinate in his house too. Unlike in Shadow Queen, when every guard, servant and maid in the palace was under his father in law influence, so he couldn't help but ignored his wife to protect her, at least he is redeemable cause he tried another way to protect her by attaching his shadow, earning money and making deal so he could change all the knight and servant inside the palace and replace it with his own people, digging secret tunnel for the escape route, he also tried to tell the FL about the danger but she didn't want to listen, resulted in the FL got killed in the end.

Soviet mother was suffering a lot because his father 'womanizing' hobby, in the ball his father only frolicking with his concubine while his mother look at him with sad eyes, she has the noblest position, wear the most luxurious dress but people either pity her or mocking her. Soviet father apparently is very handsome, there is rumor he is dealing with the devil, since he both have the 'looks' and power', every woman who met his eye would fall in love with him. There is this woman 'Alicia' (Rasta 2.0) who first came to the Empire, at first she think the rumor was overrated but when Soviet father approached her at the ball, she knew she became possessed by the devil, the next morning laying naked beside Soviet father, she feel guilty toward the Empress for a second but justified herself that he is a womanizer anyway, even if it wasn't her, he is bound to cheat with another woman so she decided to loved him and enjoy his affection while it last.

Soviet mother was crying again and he soothe her, saying after he became Emperor he would not forgive anyone who make his mother sad including his father and he is gonna lock all his father concubine in the prison, he wouldn't kill them but make them suffer enough that they think that death is a mercy. Alicia overheard them and when Soviet who has her beloved Emperor face but has his mother eyes look at her with disgust, she snapped, she feel wronged why he hated her so much, it wasn't her fault, even before her, his father already has so many concubine, the Empress warn her not to get any closer, so she said to Soviet that she will make a younger brother for him, since kids die easily it would be good for the Emperor, and Soviet still a kid, it's still a long way for him to became the Emperor.

Soviet feel bad seeing Navier go through strict diet, so he stole cookies from his mother room, and eat it together with Navier, the cookies was the one his mother prepared for Alicia, it makes someone aborted or infertile, when his mother question him, he is afraid something bad would happen to Navier so he lied that he is the only one who eat it, (that's why he is the only one who who get treatment and assumed Navier is the one who is infertile). Later he told his father that Alicia gave abortion cookies to his mother and he accidentally eat it. Since than Alicia is rumored to commit suicide in the sea, but she is survived and she became Duke Ergy father Concubine. Duke Ergy father abandoned his mother and confined her in shabby old cottage, his mother already physically weak became mentally unstable.

When Soviet asked Duke Ergy why he betrayed Rasta, what did Rasta ever done wrong to him? he ask the same question What did Alicia ever done wrong to him? Soviet ask him if he is Alicia son, Duke Ergy became disgusted, and told him that he wasn't her son but it's true that his father is the same kind (of trash) as Soviet. (IDK, is Duke Ergy hated Soviet because maybe if Soviet didn't framed Alicia, she would just stay in the Empire and his father wouldn't met her and fall in love etc or he hated Soviet because the way Soviet treated Navier reminded him so much of his thrash father)

I just wish when he wakes up, whatever his name is, he would remember the first life too, what an asshole Dad he is, it's only fair then. Sure he sealed his emotion, but he did it to himself knowing the consequences, the woman he loved sacrifices her life to give birth to their daughter but he choose to forget them altogether cause he can't cope with the pain, so he is at fault too.

my stupid virgin brain didn't even know it's a condom box, I thought it's a cigarette box, so I got confused 'why is it hard to find a suitable one, isn't he always buy the same brand?' LOL

Isn't what he said exactly what any abuser out there would say 'I did it because I Love you', they regretted after seeing their partner beaten and bruised, but after it's healed they would do that again, that's what happened in real life.

as someone who read ch 25 before but don't understand a single thing, that MIB memes crack me up.