Wth this is peak I'm telling you it's PEEEAAAAK
Love them... love love loooove them (/TДT)/
I'm so glad they're back together no nonsense no nothing just people that were forcefully separated never forgot eachother and are now back in love... bro this is so good just end the story right here and continue with fluffy side chapters! I'm scared and I do not need more angst or drama in their lives...
I just reread the whole thing and as much as I'm sad for chan and he my baby fr the one he loved is already gone. I noticed he's always had a crush on sihyeon and that just makes my heart bleed...at least now he can see the person he loves be alive and happy... the same with other members. It always makes me cry when I think about sihyeon and how lonely he felt because he pushed people away in fear and everyone that loved him hesitated to get involved and let him know he's not alone... I understand both his feelings and the people around him. I have trouble reaching out when I'm having a hard time even though i know I'm surrounded with good people that care and you also can't really force help down someone's throat when they keep pushing you back... jaeha should just burn in the most fiery pits of the hell that I'm personally building him... he literally did all that for fucking nothing! It wasn't about money or power or anything like that he's just pathetic and he believed that to be reason enough for ruining someone's life...
Upon rereading i also felt really sad for hajin I always felt bad for sihyeon because I've been a long time kpop fan so he hurts me deeply but hajin's life kinda sucked even more! Living in that environment being forced to never show any emotion and just operating on auto pilot without rest and still trying to secretly right every little wrong that he can(he changed things little by little behind his father's back) when he's such a kind and precious little baby... as much as it pains me that sihyeon is gone I'm grateful to him for giving this opportunity to hajin to live a real life filled with good experiences... I genuinely hope sihyeon's soul gets to rest in peace and be reborn in a life that's not so filled with hardship and anxiety...
You really wrote what I've been thinking and what I've been feeling while I'm reading this... Like my heart aches so much when i think about the OG sihyeon and OG Hajin... Like... Their circumstances are so fucked up, i feel sorry for the both of them, i mean they could be friends or something if they're in a different circumstances
"i even ship them a little in the dream sphere" OHHH YOU'RE JUST LIKE ME FR FR I've been crazy every since i saw that one panel when OG hajin told OG sihyeon not to cry and wipe his tears.. LIKE HE'S SO GENTLE WITH OG SIHYEON. i even found it funny cause sometimes hajin also secretly dissed and sihyeon couple of times in his mind like, "why did you put me into this, i thought you just want me to take care about your sister? I didn't sign up for this shit" YET HE STILL HELP OG SIHYEON GOT HIS REVENGE and not only taking care of his sister, but he also practically resolved everything he's like that one friend who has stoic expression, sounds so done with everything and seems uninterested abt you, and nagging you nonstop but actually gonna be your number one protector
like they would be the IT duo/soulmate (be it romantic or platonic) but yeah i feel sorry for OG Hajin and OG Sihyeon, they're so young :((((
The candy got me thinking. Considering layla was abandoned many times in childhood she honestly grew up kind of secure. Like it could be way worse. Yes her constant struggle not to inconvenience anybody specially Bill remmer is a direct result of that but it never really showed up in her love life. Not that there's much of a love life but you know. She was really ready to become Kyle's wife. What I'm trying to say is her actions until now weren't necessarily something that people without abandonment issues wouldn't do, it would be very normal to give up a relationship when your partner's family are insane like that and you weren't in love to begin with. But it seems like from now on this might come into play in her relationship with the duke. Specially because raw emotions are at play unlike with kyle that was a result of rational thinking, comfort and kindness. Maybe his obsession towards her, never letting her out of his sight appeals to the abandoned child in her and however much she denies this with logic she still craves the person that despite everything will find a way to keep her close no matter what cruel methods he has to use.
Today I found out I need to be in the mood for smut. Which is quite insane because It's a very new feeling for my perverted ass but I guess the characters doing foreplay is actually foreplay for me easing me into the smut lmao.
Also you can always tell when an artist used to be a straight smut drawer because girl that is a vagina who are you trying to fool? Either that or the reference used for the panels is from straight porn and the artist didn't bother finding a gay one











"SO ORDER ME TO GO DIE IN THERE-"
Why don't you just stab me in the heart while you're at it (/TДT)/ ╧╧
brooooo this just shattered me into a million pieces...