Looks like Yungjo is still bitter about Yosep exposing him like that. It’s too soon to trust him, but at least he apologized. I feel so bad for my poor Garam. My boy deserves so much better than this. And Heejae, that fucking bastard, didn’t even bother checking in on him for FOUR YEARS? I hope he fucking kicks himself over it and absolutely loses his mind with jealousy.
I don’t like youngjo. He was so selfish and didn’t seem to care about other people’s feelings. When his own plan fell apart, he basically went, “Fine, I’ll just stick with Garam.” I really don’t want Garam to become his pawn again. Kruger is a much better case.
What I found really interesting was that before Garam left, he also broke the piano. In a way, he didn’t just leave Heejae—he also broke the language of communication Heejae had always hidden behind. Music was Heejae’s way of expressing his feelings without having to say them directly. Now, by leaving and breaking the piano, Garam is basically saying:
I don’t want to keep decoding your love anymore. If you have something to say, you need to say it yourself.
Heejae really needs to change. I just hope he realizes it before someone else steals Garam’s heart.
For Heejae, apologizing and saying “I love you” are psychologically not small things at all.
There are a few things going on here. Saying sorry means admitting that he was wrong, and I think Heejae sees that as lowering himself or admitting weakness. Saying “I love you” means making himself vulnerable. As long as he shows his feelings through his actions, he can still keep some control. But saying it out loud means he’s no longer hiding behind his actions, and he’s giving the other person the power to hurt him.
He genuinely seems to think his actions are enough. His mindset is probably, “I wrote music for him, I stayed by his side, I did all these things, so obviously I love him. Why do I need to say it?” He doesn’t seem to understand that love isn’t just about what you mean—it’s also about how the other person receives it. For Garam, hearing “I love you” and “I’m sorry I hurt you” is part of feeling emotionally secure. Heejae focuses more on what he intended than on how his actions actually made Garam feel.
And I think his insistence on not saying these things is probably part of that same old defense mechanism. If he finally lets that wall down, he’ll have to face his feelings, his mistakes, and the damage he’s caused other people.
I can’t bring myself to read any other manhwa or manga anymore. They bore me to the core. . I’ve been waking up excited just to read the new chapters lately. And once again, huge thanks to SAGE for translating and uploading this gem. You did such an amazing job with it. Now, time for a reread!
I really hope Heejae cleans up the mess he’s made and eventually realizes just how much he fucked up all four of his students’ lives. I genuinely hope he feels remorse and sincerely apologizes to them from the bottom of his heart.
How much of an asshole can Heejae be? He’s seriously going after his former student’s career again just because Compton picked up the same shitty traits he taught him. Has no one in his 40-something years of life ever slapped some sense into this man and told him to stop being such an asshole? Like, seriously, dude, get your shit together.
It’s honestly hilarious that Heejae is so furious about what Compton has done and is already thinking about getting back at him. Like, sir, have you looked in a fucking mirror? You traumatized basically all your students with the way you treated them, and Garam only managed to understand you, fall in love with you, and put up with your bullshit because of who he is and how empathetic he is. Yet somehow you’re completely blind to your own behavior and think you’re in the right.
And now you’re planning to fuck with Compton’s career and life behind Garam’s back? The audacity is actually insane. You did a thousand times worse to your own students, but somehow Compton is the one who needs to be punished?
I need someone to fuck Heejae up the same way he fucked up his students. That dumbass has no fucking idea what he’s done to them.
What the hell happened in chapter 205? Everyone in the comments is losing their minds. Please, someone spoil it for me, I need to know!
Garam is such a gentleman. I love how gently he’s trying to comfort Compton. Those little pats on his back feel like he’s saying, “I understand you. I know what you’ve been through.” Maybe, in the end, Garam can even give Compton the closure he desperately needs.
Garam is someone who I’d say is empathetic and emotionally perceptive. He has a good ability to look beyond people’s outward behavior and understand what’s underneath it. He can empathize with wounded people without letting them take advantage of his empathy or use him as an emotional dumping ground. He understands people, but he also knows where to draw the line. If anything, I don’t think he’s become colder—he’s just become more mature.
Compton is someone who is desperate for validation, consumed by resentment, and deeply wounded. He craves Heejae’s approval so much that he still can’t seem to see his own worth outside of Heejae’s opinion of him. He also seems to project his own resentment onto Garam, assuming that because they both have Heejae as a teacher, Garam must hate him too. And in his attempt to hurt Heejae, he’s slowly turning into a miniature version of him—a little knife that ends up hurting others too.
I think bad memories don’t just disappear. Sometimes they stay with you and make you want to prove to the person who hurt you that you’re better than they thought. That’s why I think all the praise Compton gets from others means so little to him—because the approval he actually wanted, from Heejae as his teacher, was never there.
Compton needs to accept that Heejae isn’t the center of the musical universe, but that’s easier said than done. When a teacher tears you down so badly that you feel inadequate and even become afraid to touch your instrument again, you find your own way of coping. For Compton, I think becoming a conductor was part of that.
I like Heejae as a character, but there’s a difference between being blunt and being an asshole. He genuinely doesn’t know how to communicate or understand other people’s feelings. I’m an adult and I still carry some trauma from my first teacher’s humiliation and insults, even though I was the best student in my class, so I can understand Compton to some extent.
I also think Garam means so much to Compton because of their shared pain. It’s like siblings who grew up with an abusive parent—they carry the same wounds and understand each other in a way others can’t. Garam feels like someone who truly understands Compton, so he becomes a kind of balm for his wounds. That may also be why Garam’s praise matters so much to him—it gets tangled up with the validation he always wanted from Heejae.
And while Garam managed to get through Heejae’s thorny exterior, truly see him, reach him, and love him, Heejae’s other students were left with anger, resentment, and feelings of inadequacy. So, according to the spoilers, I can understand why Compton feels betrayed and played when he finds out about their relationship. It’s not just jealousy; Garam got the version of Heejae that they all wanted but never got to see.
Heejae is in his forties and still doesn’t know how to communicate like a normal human being. He has zero respect for the other person’s feelings and just keeps hurting them. He’s only recently learned how to treat Garam somewhat like an actual person, and even then, judging by the spoilers in the comments, he still goes behind Garam’s back and does things against his wishes. I have a feeling that shitty attitude is going to come back to bite him in the ass eventually.
Does this manhwa have a novel too, or is it an original work?
I've been commenting a lot today lol. Thank you so much, SAGE. May you always stay healthy. You translated and uploaded this gem, and honestly, I can't look at other manhwas the same way anymore. Every other plot feels so repetitive now. I genuinely haven't read something this beautiful in a long time.
Could someone spoil how Compton eventually figures out that Garam and Heejae are together? And does Compton’s orchestra group fall apart or not? I don’t know, I kind of feel bad for Compton too.
Could someone please drop the links to both songs Heejae wrote himself?
What the fuck is this shitty story even supposed to be anymore? If even the police aren't going to take the MC's side, he should've just dealt with the ML himself. If it were me, I'd drug him, then tear him to pieces. With all the spoilers I've seen in the comments, I'm dropping this shit. Can I get an omegaverse where the omega actually fucks up a toxic alpha for once? If you know any, please recommend them.