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I wonder how these four years have affected Heejae in contrast to Garam, since he continued to perform, while Garam quit entirely. With Garam’s absence, i’m curious to know if/how Heejae has mentally spiraled, like indulging in smoking/drinking more heavily, treating those around him even worse, etc.
but it’s hilarious everybody knowing it’s Heejae just by the fucking cloud of smoke #aura
spooky/horror/thriller recs?
rib of adam and placebo are perfect
thank you guys!
the ratings on the rib of adam are crazy asl
nah rib of adam is peak
I remember seeing someone make the observation that Garam uses sex as a coping mechanism as a way to avoid communication, and this chapter totally reinforced that! I’m glad that they ended up not sleeping together, Garam is in a vulnerable state, and needs nonjudgmental support, their tender hug felt symbolistic of that in a way.
What makes it even more upsetting, at least for me, is the fact that garam probably learned this coping mechanism from heejae too. Heejae avoided actually speaking about his problems and just pushed it down with violent sex as well. And because garam has only ever really been sexually involved with heejae, he has adopted that mindset as well
HOLYSHIT?? this author is genuinely amazing what the fuckkk
Woah… This is a great connection!
I couldn’t agree more, Heejae has influenced Garam in so many ways. Not just through sex, but through their performances as well. With Heejae always reiterating and enforcing that message of ‘letting the music speak for itself’ into Garam, and in a way, made that become another mechanism to suppress the list of problems in their relationship and avoid clear communication.
The power dynamics in their relationships are insane, from their difference in age, class, and obviously personality. And this state that we’re now seeing Garam in, is the ultimate result of just that.
I need to see Garam healings SOON.
BDK’s pen is constantly on fire, I need to know what goes through that mind of hers!
She might end up becoming my role model in writing
That’s why Youngjo insists that he wasn’t always like that. I was re-reading it, and honestly, I can’t help but feel sad for Garam—because, let’s be real, Heejae is his definition of love. He was shaped by all that toxicity; it started when he was just 20 ;-; he doesn’t know anything else, and he doesn’t feel right without it.