sounds tough. in a big group it can be hard but try asking people how they are doing or ask them about themselves related to the club or something. shift it from you worrying about being left out, to you engaging to be interested in others and see if anything changes.
usually being interested in others is a way to make better friends, like this i...... reply
if you need to talk to someone right away, you can try a hotline, it's free and confidential.
i found these two:
9-8-8
https://988lifeline.org/
Crisis Text Line
Text HOME to 741741
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share a surprise that actually turned out good, if you wish, even if it's just a little thing
like it seems impossible to be able to see everything with the way the schedule is staggered and i guess they have a line system. does this mean i can't jump around to another lecture if i hate the lecture i'm in? and which day is the best to get merch? and is the parking insane (it says $42 each day nani the fock?!?)? and where the hell is the food? they didn't mention any food vendors, would i have to leave the venue to go find some? thanksss