Tbh i seriously love Heejae's character. I love how raw and real he is. He struggles with grief and regret in a way that's ugly and sometimes cruel, showcasing through all his subbornness and immovability, he is as human as the next. Even when people interpret his distance as something 'inhuman' (like how claren asked if he traded in his feelings if im remembering correctly...). His complexities are why i (and definitely Garam) are so fascinated by him.
The reason Garam fell in love with heejae was because of the vulnerability he sensed when he listened to the professor’s Chopin, I don’t think heejae complexity fascinated Garam in the slightest
It was because of Heejae's complexities that his chopin was as impactful as it was. Garam got a peek into Heejae's unfiltered heart. Something that Heejae usually hides, or doesn't explicitly show off. Plus Garam saw a side of Heejae that he never saw before, his loneliness. Garam went from thinking Heejae was some cold man to seeing that he had more depth to him beyond that. But we can agree to disagree! ^^
Heejae obviously cares for Garam a lot, but the way he's constantly pushing and pushing for Garam to be "big" is what will ultimately drive them apart. Garam knows that the mark that Heejae has on him is too deep to decipher where he ends and Heejae begins, which is causing him to have an identity crisis. Even when he wants to push away and create distance between him and Heejae, he's always drawn back to Heejae's every word and continues to orbit him.
Tbh all i can hope for is for Garam to create concrete boundaries. From the beginning Garam has appreciated the little things (small concert halls, holiday performances, lesser known musicians, etc...), but Heejae refuses to see that the "little things" matter. Heejae needs to be understanding to what Garam deems as meaningful and allow him freedom to fall and to fly on his own.
honestlyy, he's so self absorbed he just can't see the same way garam sees things so just shuts down wat garam has to say. n tht's so in line w the freq quote in the manhwa, smth along the lines of they r bound to hurt eachother becus they r different ppl in the end (n i've noticed the author's twted tht several times too). n also heejae seems to think tht his actions convey how he feels 'y don't u still understand how much u mean to me' (fg which ch) but doesn realise these things act hv to be communicated like garam's not a mind reader pls he's also his own person who has his own thoughts n opinions
Exactly!!! In a way Heejae is self sabotaging their relationship with his inability to compromise. Yes, he has changed since meeting Garam, but Garam is the main one compromising in general. Heejae is barely meeting Garam half way. Unlike Garam who is trying to wholeheartedly understand Heejae and his problems with loneliness, Heejae just doesn't reciprocate that level of energy. Like Garam literally plays him music to connect with him, comforts him, looks deeper than other people... Heejae really does the bare minimum and probably not even that. He's giving crumbs for Garam to work with
!!! culdn agree more. heejae wuld prolly beef w us saying he poured everythin for his success, but for their relationship ?? gen wat has he rly done besides give garam sm good dicking n affection /hj. in terms of their love towards eachother i think tht n their emotional bond r fully cemented, so i doubt they're on the verge of falling out of love or smth but the main issue is the disconnect w their minds/ perception of the world !! i mean they clearly care abt eachother a lot n want to be happy together but love alone can't fix thingssss. eventually he'll hv to meet garam halfway otherwise yh, if he continues to be so ignorant then garam's bound to reach a breaking point n he just might say byebye fr
No matter how Garam finds out about the manager, all hell is going to break loose. I feel like this whole situation is just going to remind Garam of what he experienced Youngjo. Even though Youngjo eventually realized his feelings, those weren't enough in the face of his previous actions. When Garam finds out about Heejae's projections, he's definitely going to doubt their whole relationship and reevaluate things.
Heejae is gonna destroy that Debussy soon hahahahahahah get it
But seriously what a beautiful chapter! My heart feels so full for Garam. I'm genuinely so proud of him... he's endured so much. He really deserves everything and more :(
Erectile dysfunction is NOT touching heejae
Please it's midnight here I m laughing under my blanket
(take what i say with a grain of salt since i used a really shitty translator to read and i only read like 2 chapters with little context)
I skipped a bit ahead and i'd just like to say that even if heejae says/does cruel things to garam in the future, please understand that it's a defense mechanism.... i'm not excusing his actions entirely but he's obviously a hurt and lonely man who's scared of deeper connections.
I'm lowkey just scared his character might be misinterpreted ><;;;
We can understand him but still hold him accountable for his action. I mean hes old enough to work on himself without taking it on a kid
Yeah ofc! I was just saying in case people completely miss the point of his actions and just say that he's 'evil.' It's obvious he doesn't mean what he says (in the future chaps i read), but is simply warning garam (in his mean way) that he isn't a good person.
When we get to that point in the manwha you'll understand what i mean.
it's so beautiful to see heejae realizing that he can't take garam's hate. he's treated every student with the same cruel and strict teachings, but heejae cannot resist the person and sound that garam is. he's now seeing how the hate he initial wanted is coming back to bite him since he's being blocked out from garam's world, and in turn the true depth of his sound that he carves.
They make me so sad...