Pls recommend me any dilf x young hot guy combo perferably the dilf being a tad edgy or sad but either way is fineლ(´ڡ`ლ)
Yeah freaky ahh
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/koi_ga_ochitara/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/collar_kiss/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/on_or_off/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/reemployment_life_with_an_unsociable_untalkative_magician/
This one is straight but it's so good and I want many people to read about it
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/our_sunny_days/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/koi_ga_michitara/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/body_complex/

TMI and irrelevant to this forum but I want to vent so keep reading if you want
Recently me and this guy decided to meet up (for horny reasons) but keep in mind we're both noob virgins so once we met up it was extremely awkward.
For context we've known each other for years but over time I noticed tension between us two. I was obsessed with them but I felt it to be one-sided.
Suddenly they were moving away, and I noticed us becoming more distant. Couple months later he texts and he basically confesses to me, and saying he'd want to see me one more time. Our convo that night was a bit freaky but once we met up it was all talk.
I was in in his car, he suggests we go to the backseat. Now keep in mind I've read and seen my share of smut, yaoi, porn, all that stuff. But being in that situation myself I had no idea how to react, and I would also like to add how I've fantasized of freaky scenarios such as this but I also have an avoidant attachment style so in that moment I found it so embarrassing being touched, vulnerable, and up close with someone all of the sudden with no romantic relationship.
We started kissing and he picked me up to place me on his lap. I could feel his dick throbbing, which I liked but I felt indifferent when kissing him, which was shocking. I started to realize our time apart made me get over him and lose that spark. I kissed him and zoned out, and within like 3 minutes he came. After that it was even more awkward, although it was never outright stated, I could feel the mutual thought between us that we weren't that into each other any more. We never talked again after that
Now I can't read yaoi without remembering my experience with him, any kissing scene, hugging, humping, or just plain romance, it makes me recollect the fond memories I had with with him, but then automatically leads to that experience, which was cringy, embarrassing, and awkward.
Anyways thanks to whoever read this, it's a bit TMI but I feel better bringing up what's been bothering me. ┗( T﹏T )┛
Sounds like me 5 yrs ago. I never gets better unless you realize the real life sex is and will always be awkward, it takes two to row.
Only difference is that I turned to fiction more after the same first time awkward experience much more bc fiction is better and I feed my delulu 10x
Anyways just saying this to hopefully join u on saying you're not alone on this experience, I felt that too like the exact situation plus I'm avoidant so it was weird and hard to lock in
I guess it's just a coming of age thing haha
Thank you you for responding it's nice knowing its not just me. I'm aware real life is different from fiction but it's such as bummer tbh ( ̄へ ̄)hopefully as I mature I'll come to enjoy rather than avoid it
Oh yeah def, just be open to try different people and be safe while doing so, cuz stds and stuff. It's specially fun to try and experience when you're in the space to be ready it's like looking forward to a new chapter or episode
You'll also get to know yourself a lot and bonus point is as you mature you will also get to determine if the smut is written by an author who has experience or someone who just really knows the good stuff