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Hi guys, it’s again, your fav blackie coming back. This is gonna be a yap session because….I enjoy yapping, especially when it makes me think in depth. After all….I’m indeed a psycho. Now, I gave an opinion a few days ago, and while I mostly stand by my review, someone in my comments responded, and it made me think from a new perspective. 



Now, to give a summary, I essentially said that I don’t think Jaxx intended to be racist, and that opinion still stands. I gave reasons why I felt other people thought it was going to be racist and how it may come off as racist. That point also stands. Now, there was this talking point that was going crazy in the comments where people were comparing rape in yaoi vs racism/slavery, and people were making the argument of ‘you read rape in yaoi but draw the line at slavery,’ and my initial stance was that it was not comparable and it was ignorant, and I would like to tweak that comment I made. 



I believe I may have jumped the gun a bit because of my own experiences, as well as what I deemed was what. Both rape and racism are terrible, no matter what. And I will say that rape and racism are indeed LOOSELY comparable. Now, before anyone tries to murder me, give me a chance…..plssssss :) Both rape and racism involve psychological abuse, a sense of torture, and the act of belittling someone, have been around for centuries, and dare I say, rape has been around since the beginning of time. 



When I think of racism and slavery, I think of the more extreme events, but rape has had its extremeities, too. It truthfully depends on the circumstances because people who do rape others have just as much of the capability to brutalize you, murder you, or do anything to further humiliate you. If you look at both comparisons, they both have their similarities, but are not the same; don’t confuse them. 



What I will say the topic truthfully depends on your own point of view and what you’ve yourself endured. In my head, I was viewing this mostly from my perspective of my experiences out of events that happen in everyday life for me, such as rude glares when you walk in a store, people making comments under their breath. You having to make sure that you’re extremely careful with how you interact with other races, etc. 



Typically, and this is where I admit I was wrong, I view rape mostly as a one time expirence people dealt with because more times than not, rape is a one time expirence. To be clear, sexual assault or sexual coercion are different than rape, just under the same umbrella, but those instances happen more often than rape does for an individual. So I would naturally, with this mindset, think racism is worse because it’s a constant compared to rape for an individual. I didn’t take into consideration of the fact that there’s human trafficking, marital rape, etc., in which rape is a constant for those people.

Things on my part definitely could’ve been worded better. I also have to take into consideration that I don’t read dark fiction only because the guy is hot or to goon to it like a lot of people do. I love psychological themes and to analyze things as well, so when I say you can enjoy reading fiction with rape in it while also not excusing the actions of the character, I’m looking at it from how I read, not a majority of people who use the ‘it’s just fiction ’ excuse.



Now, as far as this book goes, I would like to add more to my opinion. When it comes to is this book is racist or not, my answer is still - it wasn’t intended to be, but we will never know. When I say I don’t think Jaxx would have been able to give the story justice, I was more so looking at it from the perspective of, I want the nitty gritty if you’re going to do a story like this.

I love dark themes because, as you can tell, I enjoy to yap as well as give other opinions others may not consider because I love psychology, as well as analyze stories and the characters in them. But I have to keep in mind, as well as others, that this is a historical fiction; it’s not supposed to be accurate if they don’t intend it to be that way. 



I can understand the comments saying that nothing is wrong with this book because in one chapter, we have nothing that is actually wrong because it's fiction. It’s all under speculation of what could have possibly happened had this book continued. For example, my perspective on it was written in ignorance because I didn’t fully take into consideration that it’s a historical fiction.



The only problem I had was when the MC gave slaves money and told them to return to their families. My issue with that was that most slaves couldn’t read, most of them lost their families and had no way or resources to find them, and more of them were scared to leave their masters because they had very few skills and didn’t know what life would be outside of slavery. That was my only problem, but realistically, it's a historical fiction; it’s rare if it’s going to be accurate, and again, as I said last time, I don’t think slavery was going to be the big talking point of the manga. I personally would’ve just wanted more realism to it because that’s what I like.



I think all these perspectives are valid because not only is it a matter of point of view, but we have only one chapter and ignorance to go off of. Ignorance isn’t a bad thing; it just means you’re not well-versed in something, which is understandable. I can’t be mad, and I think lots of people shouldn’t be mad because they cancelled it. Now, if the book kept going and it was becoming racist or didn’t improve their work, I could then see it being a problem people were up in arms about. The story was just ignorance, depending on the perspective, gone wrong, but nothing was blatantly racist about this if I’m being honest. What was given was fair because in that time period, people spoke that way regarding black people and how they viewed themselves.

I’m not directly sure who the predominant group of people was that were upset about this yaoi. I would like to assume it was fellow black people, but no tea, no shade, other races will be more upset about something than the actual group that’s affected. 



Now, I would have liked to see what would’ve become of this book…..of course I would’ve because again I like dark topics. I would’ve given it a fair chance. I don’t think it should’ve got cancelled until we got more context to the book. I think the issue is that Jaxx came in very strong, and they should’ve either, as I said before, consulted a black person in the sense of how to open up with the story in a way so that it is palatable. 



I think if maybe once we got to the third chapter and it had that how slave master line it would’ve been more acceptable (i use that loosely) in the sense of ‘okay ill be patient before I draw a conclusion on what kind of story this will be’. Or I would’ve kept going so that people could see more of what the story would’ve been. I’m not losing my mind that it’s cancelled, and I still commend Jaxx for trying something new and cancelled it because they felt it was the best outcome, or it wasn’t in their depth to continue.



K…..I think I’m done yapping, hoped you enjoyeddddd byeeeeee.

Hey guys, so this is just my opinion, and me not being biased, and yes....I'm indeed black, let's carry on. Read it all before you decide to try and execute me in the comments. I would like to say I don't think Jaxx intended to be racist, and I don't think this manga was intended to come off as racist. I think that they wanted to do a story in which the period itself was briefly a factor of the manga. I can totally see how this comes off as racist yaoi slop. I think that while it wasn't intended to be racist, it is written in ignorance and in a way of 'oh the main guy so humble for letting the slaves go' and the love interest is a 'humble slave master' it's giving that slaves they had weither they looked after then or inherited them due to their 'humbleness' if you will, we must completely glamorize and glorify them because they aren't bad like the brutal instances of slavery we know about and even don't know about in history.

I think Jaxx jumped the gun and should've gotten fellow black individuals' opinions on this before they published this. I think if they did this and actually put more care into how they wrote this, I think it wouldn't have gotten nearly as much backlash as it got. With a topic like this, you have to be extremely careful or simply not write it at all. Jaxx could've easily just written about the time period and left slavery out of it completely, or loosely have it added (such as slavery is abolished or currently the civil war is ongoing). I doubt Jaxx was going to heavily talk about slavery in itself, and it was going to be a book about a man who sets slaves free and is a slave owner. It comes off condescending and watered down, so we can digest this so we don't feel disgusted reading it.

This was extremely risque and as much as I want to commend them for taking such a huge risk, I also think it's incredibly stupid because I could've altered this plot to where it wouldn't have nearly been offensive, and it could've still been yaoi with maybe a similar and dare I say a more interesting plot. It could've been a rivalry between two generals or commanders in the Civil War who fall for each other, but they are on opposing sides because idk they have a father who they are scared to disappoint, so they have to be for slavery but they don't actually have that view. Hell...it could've been about two generals on the same side that are scared to be gay because they know, on top of being abolitionists, they would get murdered for being gay. Or cowboys who trade goods....anything would've been better than this.

BTW, not saying this actually should've been written.....but I'm just saying.....there were better storylines if you were gonna do this kind of political story of this multitude. All this to say....regardless, I don't think Jaxx was going to be able to give this type of history justice anyways, because I doubt Jaxx did their due diligence in learning enough history to do this manga. (I see comments saying in Korean they aren't even taught about slavery.) Respectfully, I'm not losing sleep that the story is cancelled, and neither should you. I think the criticism they got was fair, and I don't think it needs to be written, especially after they cancelled it.

The thing is, it would look so bad on Jaxx if they came back after they said the book was cancelled and they came back to finish it, and not only that, they didn't improve the story. It's a big slap in the face to black people. Also, those who are comparing people, I guess loving manga with rape to slavery (drawing the line at slavery), are actually insane and incredibly ignorant. Not only did people during slavery rape black people, but they ate them, lynched them, used their skin as decorations, made them have sex in front of others to emasculate/humiliate each other.....the list goes on. I have nuance to enjoy a book while not justifying or ignoring the actions of the characters in the book, but we are not about to compare fucking slavery that lasted over 200 years, to rape in yaoi. It is not remotely the same. Not downplaying rape, obviously, but I want you to genuinely hear how fucking insane this sounds. 'You can read rape in yaoi, but you draw the line at slavery?' Yes, bitch I do, *imagine I can add a meme, and it's Cardi B in court meme gesturing to her eyes* like are some off yall deadass?

First things first, I hope Han gets better. Second thing, the nerve of some n to be upset with Han when they have a while health issue because of doing the art is appalling. Thirdly yall getting mad like you aren't pirating the damn manga in the first place is insane. You're not even directly supporting the artist, yet you're pissed they're taking an extension. Grow up, deadass, because if Han still produced work and it was half-assed, or continued to overwork themselves to where they had to drop the story, you'd be pissed. If you've waited 2 months, you can respectfully wait another, and if you can't, shut the fuck up and don't read the shit anymore.

Coming from someone who veryyyyy morally grey and loves the story and all sorts of dark fiction, I totally agree that rape is practically in every Yaoi, and it's altering the way people consume fiction. I think the issue is that in these stories themselves, people don't fully classify the rape as rape because of how the artists push the narrative that they fall in love because they're a misunderstood person, and that the rape was like a 'crossroad' of sorts that was bound to happen.

Also, because the tops make the bottoms have orgasms during the rape, a lot of the time they diminish that it's actual rape because of the body's natural response to pain mixed with pleasure. They see the body's response as truth, not caring about what the character has actually said. Rape to many, is only rape if you don't find enjoyment in it because that's not being 'a perfect victim'.

I love Zhenya down (I read the novel), but it's still no excuse for what he did to Taekjoo, no matter how traumatic his life was or what he was or wasn't introduced to. People lack nuance to where let's just say 'I see how your life has molded for this to be the outcome of how you treat people and relationships, but what you did is still wrong, stupid, and it's not okay to do regardless if you weren't taught differently.' I can sympathize while also not diminishing their actions. The issue is that many can't - LMAOOOOOO

The argument of 'it wasn't that bad' is unfortunately because, when you read so many of these stories, you kinda 'grow numb'/desensitized to the rape at hand. Playing devil's advocate here (not justifying it in any way), but when you see harsher versions of rape, and because of what a character could do versus what they did do, the rape is not only diminished, but it's seen as an act of mercy, like it is in this story. Not necessarily because of attraction alone, but also because they've seen worse and they know what said character is capable of. If the rape isn't this brutalizing, merciless act, to them, it's not that bad when, in fact, it's always that bad. You wouldn't tell an actual rape victim 'it wasn't that bad'.....I would hope.

The story doesn't endorse rape. The audience does. Not everyone, but a good lot of people do. A story like this will be like many of these: 'I chase you, you deny me, I rape you (or violate you in any way), you find out my traumatic backstory, you understand me, and we fall in love with very little character development or great character development.' Lots of these stories follow this exact cycle, whether good or bad. The issue is that the audience begins to fall weak in the knees after the traumatic backstory, completely forgets all the horrible things the top did, and excuses their actions. The story itself doesn't say 'this is a love you should strive for' just because it got popular. What endorses it is the audience consuming it with their opinions.

I'd definitely recommend reading the novel because we get actual details. I think that things are left out of the manga because the artist has disk issues, and I think they're just trying to push the story out as fast as they can, and I doubt the actual meat of the story will be involved much from the looks of it.

Here's a thought that may ruffle some feathers, but it must be said. If you lack nuance and you can only see a story in one singular road, whether fully positive or fully negative. Not taking into account everything inside of it. Or you just read a book to just say you read it, but don't actually take in details, you are not mature enough to read dark fiction, and you don't need to read it. I obviously can't stop anyone from reading it; however, I think many torture themselves reading a book because they see it as a one-way street. Dark fiction is loosely connected to being psychological in some aspects. It's to make you think, even if it has lots of smut. You still have to pay attention, or your commentary, unfortunately, isn't fair.

In this story alone, lots of people don't pay attention to details. I'll go with the stuff that is in the manga (I won't bring up the novel to prove the point.) For example, people make the argument, 'Why does Taekjoo not fight back hard enough, and why does he let Zhenya overpower him? After all, he's a spy.' Zhenya was in the FSB who worked in a unit by himself. Zhenya has a height and strength advantage. He ripped a man's jaw with his bare hands.....Taekjoo can't fight that man. If Zhenya wasn't interested in him, Taekjoo wouldn't have even gotten a singular hit in.

Another argument, "Zhenya is so cruel for no reason and is keeping Taekjoo just because he likes fucking him and he's a bastard for treating Taekjoo as a pet.' Taekjoo willingly blew up Zhenya's blueprints after barely escaping with his life, all because he was upset his pride was fucked with after Zhenya played him. Since Taekjoo is considered a traitor/fugitive in Russia, if Zhenya lets him go or gives him to the FSB, they'll kill him on sight. Not that his cruelty is okay, Taekjoo is still trying to find a way out and to escape. Zhenya can't exactly say 'stay,' and Taekjoo actually listens, but it's never gonna happen. Zhenya is also treated like an asset to his family and cast aside because of his violent nature. He likely didn't experience proper love (I won't spoil the novel because the backstory is sadder than that), and therefore, he doesn't know what he feels for Taekjoo or how to express that. A mafia/political family likely doesn't have much love in them, which leads him to treat him like a pet and take care of him like one. Point being, context matters; it matters incredibly otherwise when you give a review, and it's lacking the meat, you're not giving a fair perspective, and you're just reading it and not paying attention.

Sorry not sorry for the long fuck ass essay, hope you enjoyedddddd.

Guys...Idk if maybe I'm just overally freaked out or what, but I NEEDED MOREEEE. I went into this knowing the type of story it was gonna be.....SMUT ON WHEELS and I'm okay with that. And I love the pearled dick, y'all. I'm sorry......but see I fear I didn't get all I was craving. Like chapter after chapter 10.....ms author girl played.....I WANTED MORE ICONIC SEX, AND I FEEL PLAYEDDDDD. Maybe I'm the problem because of my whorish tendencies.....and that's okay because I enjoy reading pure smut goon fuel garbage for the sake of envisioning myself as the bottom because yes.....I HAVE A SIZE KINK AND A BIG DICK KINK. And the pearls.....this BL introduced me to another kink.....a nice pearled dick.......until i googled that shit (it looks ugly as shit irl). Moral of the story is.....when is someone gonna dominate my five foot two ass....HUH? I'M NOT ASKING FOR MUCH

Guys he didn't exactly shit himself LMAOOO. He still had Gilate's cum inside of him and he also has anal mucus. His bussy is inflammed sisters and sometimes because of that anal mucus won't be clear. I also think Gilate pissed inside of him even if it was a little. He didn't shit himself because it would've been particles of shit also (sorry to be grim LMAOO) coming out of him. It would make sense if Gilate pissed while cumming because if it was that deep it wouldn't have came out the way it did in chapter 14 when he was standing and even sitting it was practically seeping out.

So, as the title says, this was my very first BL, two years ago. I enjoyed this yaoi; however, the ending felt too rushed and lukewarm in my opinion. Like, don't get me wrong, I'm happy Dan and Jaekyung are happy and together, and maybe to a degree it's realistic as far as the result of this being the first time Jaekyung loved someone and they love him back unconditionally. It's not perfect love, however, it's a start. But I would've liked to have seen the two months they improved rather than the time skip. Like, I felt the last chapter should've maybe been 7-12 chapters worth of improvement. I'd also like to say, while Jaekyung has grown, Dan hasn't, and imo he has regressed into who he was later in season one, where he started developing feelings for Jaekyung, maybe that's why it feels so incomplete. I know Dan has a good heart and all, but for Dan to say that they 'hurt each other' isn't even remotely true. The most Dan ever did was keep things strictly business at the beginning of season two because Jaekyung really hurt his feelings for how he was treated, but that's about it. Even then, he wasn't in the wrong. The reason why I say Dan has regressed in my eyes is that every single horrible thing done to him was caused by Jaekyung. The entire story, he's either gone out of his way for Jaekyung, blamed himself for incidents that happened, or he himself watered down what happened to him, even though he was deeply affected by it. He even got stabbed, and all he thought of was Jaekyung's championship fight. I understand that this is Dan's first relationship. Hell, it's his first everything outside of his grandmother, but I honestly can't justify him essentially lowering the blows Jaekyung did by trying to say 'we both hurt each other' because it's merely not the truth of the matter. I hope we get side stories, and maybe then I won't feel as disappointed as I do about the ending.

Listen ik this story is outta pocket....believe me, I know. I know the dick is gigantic.....humungous even, and I know y'all think it's grotesque with all the pearls inside of it. BUTTTTTTTT I kinda need that......I DON'T CARE IF THE DOCTOR PUTS DEATH BY DICK ON MY AUTOPSY. I NEED THAT BADDDDDDDD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm a young ho......you only live once. And the gape.......oh bitch.........ohhhhhh the things i'd let Gilate do to meeeeeeee HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE! Okay lemme stop playing with yall

Guys, the new chapter comes out on the 2nd for us (3rd for Korea). Ignore these uploads

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