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MS as in middle school.

There are a couple of novels that I remember reading is middle school, but can't remember the titles of. I remember finding them pretty interesting, and I want to read them again, so if any of this sounds familiar, pls drop the names of the novels that you think might be it. Even if it's not, I might just check them out either way.

1. An outcasted kid with a diamond shaped birthmark on her face joins a circus (?) I'm like 70% sure that there's magic involved, but I could just be misremembering. Also her birthmark makes her "ugly" which us why she is outcasted.

2. A kid's single mom (or aunt) suddenly dissappears without a trace and she tries to look for her. I remember that the mom/aunt left a note of some sort pinned to the fridge. I don't remember much.

3. This one's like a retelling of the red queen's past from Alice in wonderland (i think) When she was younger, she fell in love with a jester. But the king/ruler of the land she lived on was infatuated with her. In the end, the jester was murdered (i forgot who did it) and that's how she became the queen, bc she wanted revenge on the jester's killer. It was smth like that, probably a lot more complicated than that lol.

4. Another Alice in wonderland-type story. There's this girl who has a hobby of framing butterflies and hanging them in her room. She likes to draw, and she's depicted as this weird girl at school. She meets this guy and she agrees to meet up with him at a skatepark (?) I forgot the rest, but I'm like 99% sure there's magic and other worldly powers involved. Might even be a popular YA novel.

5. Don't remember much abt this one (shocker, I know) but the girl is a tutor at her college (maybe high school) and she tutors this one girl who is popular (?) but she finds out that the girl is secretly pregnant, but it's the result of rape by this one guy, and they become friends, i think.

6. A book where it was in diary format and the girl was young and explaining how her days passed while she dealt wirh depression and using drugs, and basically going down the wrong path. Don't remember much else. But the book's atmosphere was like super depressing.

And that's abt it. I'd really appreciate any help pls and ty

I saw a tiktok that had those famous lines:

"I want you to make love to me"
I can't
"Why not?"
Because I don't love you
"Then pretend"

(Or smth like that)

And I never knew it came from the ao3 bkdk fanfic "From the Sidelines" until someone mentioned it in the comments. I promised myself I would never read it, but it's so heartbreaking that I wanted to read the scene itself rather than the whole fanfic, but I can't find which chapter it comes from.

Does anyone know?

Since Ao3 doesn't have any forums like this, I wanna ask on here.

Any vigilante izuku reccs? Like good ones. I've read only a couple since I'm lowk picky, but if anyone has any that they think are good, pass them my way plss

The ones I've already read:

"Invincible" by suoercrunch
"Ravenous by Mister_awesomesauce
"heap of ashes that i am" by bunjeegumboy

(All PEAK btw, I HIGHLY reccomend all three)

I really never wanted to do this online, but I need to get this shit off my chest, and I'm being 100 percent serious, so I need everyone to just be empathetic and not call me stupid for "turning to the internet for a sensitive topic". Therapy is fucking expensive and I'm not asking anybody to fix me or anything. Also, I wanted to do this anonymously, nobody on here knows me irl.

TW: sexual abuse, COCSA (child on child sexual assault)

I was sexually abused for a few years, from kindergarten until 2nd/3rd grade in elementary, by my older half-sister (same father). She was 6 years older than me, putting her in middle school for most of the abuse.

I only remember bits and pieces, and it wasn't until last year that I realized that it was cocsa and not incest that occurred between me and my sister. For a huge part of my life, I was ashamed and embarrassed because I thought that I was a bad person for doing those things with my sister. Like, I knew what happened, but it just never occured to me that she was in the wrong, so now a whole new set of problems came into my life.

I spiraled into a deep depression after realizing that fact, and I've been going no contact with my sister for about half a year now. I've been doing better, but now some burried memories pop up every now and then, and I get depressed all over again.

I've been trying to tell my mother about everything, but when I did a "trial run" with my younger sister, it kind of discouraged me a bit. About a few weeks after I told my younger sister everything, my abuser contacted me (this was before the no contact) that she was pregnant. My whole world stopped. I swear to god, I felt so frustrated and honestly betrayed when my abuser told me that. It was like, how dare she be happy when I'm suffering because of her.

And I vented to my younger sister about how it made me feel, and you know what she responded with? "Honesty, I forgot you even told me about that." I understand it was wrong of me to vent to my younger sister like that, I mean, she's not my therapist, but god, I wanted to cry. I just felt so dejected. I felt like she didn't even see how this affected me so. I completely shut down after that.

And since then, I haven't been able to talk to my mom about it. I just have this intense fear that she's going to dismiss me like my younger sister did. Like she and my father did when they caught my sister on top of me and decided that it was just incest. Like my older brother did when he caught my sister touching me under the bed and just looked the other way. I mean, christ, there would have been signs that I wasn't okay during my childhood. My mother worked while my dad was out doing god knows what. My abuser was the oldest, and I was the youngest for a long time before my younger sister came along. I must have been easy for her.z

I have gift ideas for everyone except for three people in my family. My uncle, grandma, and little sister. They're hard to shop for bc I have to consider their ages and their likes, and have to figure out what they already have and what they don't.

So I need help. I'll list the family member and what I know they like and a little abt their personalities, and you can just comment what you think that person would like. It doesn't need to be extravagant (pls, I'm lowk on a budget), but I also don't want it to be cheap (it's a pretty okay budget for christmas).


Uncle: a gamer guy. He likes gaming all night and talking with his friends online. I know he play games like cod, but idk what else. Idk what type of set up he has 'cause he always has his door closed. But ik he plays on his TV instead of computer. He likes gaming, food (but he's a picky eater), anime (he's a huge nerd and has a bunch of knowledge), and harry potter (especially Snape). I was thinking of a mini fridge, but it's lowk expensive

Grandma: she's a church lady. When she's not at church, she's in her room watching asian dramas. She's obsessed since I first showed her one like before covid. It's literally how she survived boredom lol. I decorated her room cherry blossom themed and she loved it. She gets cold easily. She likes asian dramas, sentimental things, sushi, church-related stuff, and peanuts (snoopy specifically). She's been wanting a rocking chair for forever, but the good quality ones are so expensive.

Little sister: she's the most difficult. She likes cute things. She has a bunch of keychains. Some from hello kitty, some that are random little critters with stars and strawberries attached. She likes cute clothes, too. She goes thrifting and always manages to find nice clothes, but never wears it unless we go somewhere she can show off her outfit. She has a canopy bed with ruffled white curtains and pink sheets. You can say she's the princess of the family. But she's not too spoiled. She likes anything she gets, really. And she's very crafty and creative. She likes cutesy stuff, skin care, being clean, she sometimes likes diy. But it can't just be smth regular like making jewlery, it has to be unique. She likes unique things. (Also, don't reccomend skincare products or anything related, she has a routine she likes to stick to.)

I'd very much appreciate any answers you give, ty