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I saw a tiktok that had those famous lines:

"I want you to make love to me"
I can't
"Why not?"
Because I don't love you
"Then pretend"

(Or smth like that)

And I never knew it came from the ao3 bkdk fanfic "From the Sidelines" until someone mentioned it in the comments. I promised myself I would never read it, but it's so heartbreaking that I wanted to read the scene itself rather than the whole fanfic, but I can't find which chapter it comes from.

Does anyone know?

Since Ao3 doesn't have any forums like this, I wanna ask on here.

Any vigilante izuku reccs? Like good ones. I've read only a couple since I'm lowk picky, but if anyone has any that they think are good, pass them my way plss

The ones I've already read:

"Invincible" by suoercrunch
"Ravenous by Mister_awesomesauce
"heap of ashes that i am" by bunjeegumboy

(All PEAK btw, I HIGHLY reccomend all three)

I really never wanted to do this online, but I need to get this shit off my chest, and I'm being 100 percent serious, so I need everyone to just be empathetic and not call me stupid for "turning to the internet for a sensitive topic". Therapy is fucking expensive and I'm not asking anybody to fix me or anything. Also, I wanted to do this anonymously, nobody on here knows me irl.

TW: sexual abuse, COCSA (child on child sexual assault)

I was sexually abused for a few years, from kindergarten until 2nd/3rd grade in elementary, by my older half-sister (same father). She was 6 years older than me, putting her in middle school for most of the abuse.

I only remember bits and pieces, and it wasn't until last year that I realized that it was cocsa and not incest that occurred between me and my sister. For a huge part of my life, I was ashamed and embarrassed because I thought that I was a bad person for doing those things with my sister. Like, I knew what happened, but it just never occured to me that she was in the wrong, so now a whole new set of problems came into my life.

I spiraled into a deep depression after realizing that fact, and I've been going no contact with my sister for about half a year now. I've been doing better, but now some burried memories pop up every now and then, and I get depressed all over again.

I've been trying to tell my mother about everything, but when I did a "trial run" with my younger sister, it kind of discouraged me a bit. About a few weeks after I told my younger sister everything, my abuser contacted me (this was before the no contact) that she was pregnant. My whole world stopped. I swear to god, I felt so frustrated and honestly betrayed when my abuser told me that. It was like, how dare she be happy when I'm suffering because of her.

And I vented to my younger sister about how it made me feel, and you know what she responded with? "Honesty, I forgot you even told me about that." I understand it was wrong of me to vent to my younger sister like that, I mean, she's not my therapist, but god, I wanted to cry. I just felt so dejected. I felt like she didn't even see how this affected me so. I completely shut down after that.

And since then, I haven't been able to talk to my mom about it. I just have this intense fear that she's going to dismiss me like my younger sister did. Like she and my father did when they caught my sister on top of me and decided that it was just incest. Like my older brother did when he caught my sister touching me under the bed and just looked the other way. I mean, christ, there would have been signs that I wasn't okay during my childhood. My mother worked while my dad was out doing god knows what. My abuser was the oldest, and I was the youngest for a long time before my younger sister came along. I must have been easy for her.z

I have gift ideas for everyone except for three people in my family. My uncle, grandma, and little sister. They're hard to shop for bc I have to consider their ages and their likes, and have to figure out what they already have and what they don't.

So I need help. I'll list the family member and what I know they like and a little abt their personalities, and you can just comment what you think that person would like. It doesn't need to be extravagant (pls, I'm lowk on a budget), but I also don't want it to be cheap (it's a pretty okay budget for christmas).


Uncle: a gamer guy. He likes gaming all night and talking with his friends online. I know he play games like cod, but idk what else. Idk what type of set up he has 'cause he always has his door closed. But ik he plays on his TV instead of computer. He likes gaming, food (but he's a picky eater), anime (he's a huge nerd and has a bunch of knowledge), and harry potter (especially Snape). I was thinking of a mini fridge, but it's lowk expensive

Grandma: she's a church lady. When she's not at church, she's in her room watching asian dramas. She's obsessed since I first showed her one like before covid. It's literally how she survived boredom lol. I decorated her room cherry blossom themed and she loved it. She gets cold easily. She likes asian dramas, sentimental things, sushi, church-related stuff, and peanuts (snoopy specifically). She's been wanting a rocking chair for forever, but the good quality ones are so expensive.

Little sister: she's the most difficult. She likes cute things. She has a bunch of keychains. Some from hello kitty, some that are random little critters with stars and strawberries attached. She likes cute clothes, too. She goes thrifting and always manages to find nice clothes, but never wears it unless we go somewhere she can show off her outfit. She has a canopy bed with ruffled white curtains and pink sheets. You can say she's the princess of the family. But she's not too spoiled. She likes anything she gets, really. And she's very crafty and creative. She likes cutesy stuff, skin care, being clean, she sometimes likes diy. But it can't just be smth regular like making jewlery, it has to be unique. She likes unique things. (Also, don't reccomend skincare products or anything related, she has a routine she likes to stick to.)

I'd very much appreciate any answers you give, ty

There was this one fanfic I read like a year ago, and I've been looking for it for FOREVER. I went through my history on the website, I tried going through my history on my phone, but I had gotten a new phone since then. I've tried going through my bookmarks, I've tried finding it from using the tags, but no luck. So, now I'm asking anyone who may have heard of it or have read it themselves to help me find it.

It's an mha fanfic (I know, don't throw tomatoes). I can't remember if it was platonic or romantic, but it was surrounding izuku and katsuki. It was a 'what if' fanfic ofc.

So the story goes, from what I remember, Izuku gave up on his dream to be a hero and stopped showing up to school. Katsuki (keep in mind, he was still a shitty asshole to Izuku, but he got worried after Izuku stopped showing up to school) goes over to his house and tries to see what was going on. When he knocked on the door, Inko answered and she was distraught bc she couldn't get Izuku to eat, take a shower, talk, etc. He asks if he could talk to Izuku, and she lets him in.

He goes into Izuku's room, and tries to talk to him, but Izuku never responds. So Katsuki gets kind of aggressive, and he picks Izuku up and throws him into the bath tub and demands he take a shower so he can stop worrying his mom. Izuku still doesn't talk. But Inko barges in, and upset, she tells Katsuki to come back another time. So he does, and he brings Izuku his school work (?) and tries to get Izuku talking again.

Idk how long this goes on for, or how it gets to this next part, but Katsuki tries really hard to convince Izuku not to give up on being a hero. He even tries to get him into vigilante work, saying he's be a good sidekick, partner (?) for Katsuki and they can work side by side. I think Katsuki was just talking out of his ass, saying anything to get Izuku up, but Izuku really thought about it. So the next time Katsuki come over, Izuku is out of bed and writing stuff down in his journal.

I can't remember exactly what happens after this, but skip towards the end of the fanfic, they have a huge fight, and they end up in like a sewer tunnel at night, in the rain and they confess their feelings (not romantic, more like what they have on their mind). And I can't remember anything after that.

I know it's a long shot, and this might have been deleted by the creator or my memory might be way off. But if anything you've read is even remotely similar, drop the fic name and the author, so I can check it out. I will take anything you can give me PLS