i completely get that lyrica is an absolute angel of a child and is immensely forgiving and understanding (and don't get me wrong i LOVE her lol), but sometimes i wish she would be able to feel, for an extended period of time, something like anger or resentment (directed at someone other than fjord's mom), or maybe something that could even be considered as bad or selfish.
like, while reading the part where lyrica's all shaken up about the deaths, i was astounded at how quickly she was able to essentially get over it (aside from feeling badly that fjord is desensitized to it i guess??). it would be really cool to see her kind of have to grapple with that brief disillusionment of royalty for a longer period of time, or even struggle for a little bit to see atil and fjord in the same way before having her moon revelation. i just kept thinking that if *I* were in that situation at that age, i would probably feel greatly disturbed and deeply traumatized after watching my beloved brother fucking vaporize someone into a pool of blood.
i also feel this way towards lyrica's relationship with her mother throughout the story so far. like, again, i understand that lyrica loves her mother deeply and i also appreciate that the story has continued to flesh out the abuse throughout the comic (like in the mom's background story some chapters back). but, like another commenter said, it's strange that despite lyrica living under an abusive, alcoholic mother for the first 8 years of her life, she holds no prolonged anger or sadness, no resentment---and instead absolutely worships the ground her mother walks on (yes, there was some conflict in the beginning, but it was only that lyrica didn't fully TRUST her mother).
it would have been so interesting if lyrica maintained her same personality, and yet had this strained dynamic with her mother that only improved throughout the story on a long-term scale. maybe we could have seen lyrica struggle with loving her mother while having these deep-seated negative feelings about her. i also think having this would have also solved a lot of frustration many readers feel towards the mother...in having a dynamic like this, the mother's growth might be more apparent and seem more purposeful, as she would have actually had to mend a deeply fractured relationship. it would feel less like the readers have to just watch the mother have her happy ending without fully compensating for the immense harm she did---or at least balancing out the scales.
honestly, sometimes, their dynamic just makes me sad. like, sure, it's cute! but seeing lyrica at such a young age having to silence others talking about her mom's genuine abuse and neglect of her (especially given that the shoeshiner was so concerned he wanted to ADOPT lyrica like im devastated) is just heartbreaking, even if it's not meant to be. the salt kind of gets rubbed in the wound by then seeing everybody else look at the shoeshiner like he just committed a cardinal sin by pointing out that abuse, and seeing the mother referring to her own abusive behaviors as her "secret past."
this is just wishful thinking, but it would be incredibly interesting to have lyrica at some point recall her past life and perhaps have her perspective on her mother/her life shifted. maybe i just want lyrica to be able to express the feelings she is entitled to, even if they aren't written into her character.
this desmond guy genuinely gets me so stressed out every time he appearws like im so paranoid about him potentially being a mind-reader ESPECIALLY GOING INTO THE NEUROSURGERY LEVEL like guys im SWEATING
guys does anybody know if the story's gonna progress to a point where they're all adults?? and not just in like an epilogue but for the actual story.
ganguhhhh i lowkey think im gonna drop this like the art is SO GOOD and i like the characters but it makes me way too stressed out reading it waiting for shit to happen...but i'm conflicted i feel like that meme where the guy turns away from his mining tunnel right before he hits diamonds
GUYS PLEASSEEEEEEEE PUT UR SPOILERS UNDER THE SPOILER TAG
FUCKKK the crisis he starts having when he realizes that his priorities have shifted...the way that the thoughts of "for the sake of the mission" and "my own safety" start to get diluted by "my family" and "the safety of my family" (key emphasis on "MY" not just "THE"), especially given the fact that he hasn't truly had a "family" since he was a child before the war...he's realizing, even if he can't name it, that if worse came to worst he would sacrifice himself for them, even if it meant surrendering himself to the "foolish possible end" that would expose himself and the organization. ALSO his thoughts of angst and doom being cut through by Anya yelling out to him, calling him papa, is fucking killing me
also idk if this was on purpose but i noticed that the phrases seemed to connect at one point into "sacrifice my family for the sake of my mission"....it signals a subliminal change in his mindset where, as both his family and his mission (signaled by both subjects being given the possessive "my") become equal in importance to him (and maybe as his family might become MORE important than the mission to him...whether that's already happened or will in the future depending on ur pov) they become adversarial in that completing the mission means taking advantage of and abandoning his family in the end (as he returns to the life of a spy and possibly subjects his family to danger given their intimacy with him), and that prioritizing the safety of his family means abandoning his mission, especially as his role as a spy currently puts his family in more danger...
PLEASEEEE KEEP THINKING LOID
godi fucking hate haedalying asssexual assaulting asshoethe audacity to call jaeheon crazywhen he's the whole fucking circusi'm getting genuinely irate whenever his ugly ass shows up
WE MUST STAY FOCUSED BROTHERS WE MUST STAY FOCUSED
i totally get what ppl are saying abt how penelope shouldn't have taken advantage of eclis bc irl u obviously shouldn't do that to ppl BUT while everybody DID end up being real, penelope was treating eclis that way while being under the impression that this was all a game, and that there were set paths to get to the ending, and it didn't matter what you actually DID to get to there as long as you followed a path. which makes total sense bc she spent countless hours figuring out those paths in the game (the various MLs) when she was in the real world. she was predisposed to think that it would work the same. and that's exactly what penelope was doing: she won eclis over in the hopes that (bc this was a romance game to her) she would be put on the path to the ending.
this is genuinely giving me so much anxiety now burhhhhhh..
some of the ppl in this comment section lowkey ragebaiting me rn like I GET IT U READ THE NOVEL AND SHIT HAPPENED but guys let's just live in the moment okヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~ let's enjoy the bliss we have rn...no need for cryptic ass comments let's just get there together ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶
is this on hiatus rn? i really want to read it but not if i'll have to wait like 6 months after catching up...
can someone explain to me again what this long-haired vinter did to deserve this?? im not saying he's innocent i just can't remember for the life of me
gang im so excited to see the plot thicken but I KEEP SEEING PPL HERE TALKING ABT SHIT GOING BAD IN THE NOVEL IM RLLY SCARED but its so fun rn i want to believe itll be like this foreverr（￣へ￣）
GOD BLESS U EUNGYO GOD BLESS U!!!!!! that hoe had the NERVE to be like hehe it's a secret(≧∀≦) after alllll the shit hes pulled. dont get me wrong i like how he's being a little more honest but that gen pmo. eungyo do NOT feel bad for dumping his ass he needs to start begging for u and feel the weight of his errors. i am saurrrrr ready for that dumbass smirk to be wiped off his face i need himto rehabilitate himself NOW.