it's about a teenager trying to survive a frozen wasteland while carrying the corpse of his friend, a little girl he also found in the wasteland but failed to survive the plague. the girl was alive at the start of the story and have him a notebook to write on his journey and he ended up using her book after she died too.
Thank you so much... It's exactly it
Basically, it's a childhood friends turned lovers smut.
ML has short black hair with a pretty girlish face and the FL is sorta tomboyish and they've been friends since they were young. Currently in high school, the FL sees him as just a friend (he DEFINITELY doesn't) and they're close enough to even have sleepovers with each other like girl pals. Then I think there was somnophilia??? ML hella shady and pretty yandere ish. Idk man I'm just trying to find this manga ok. The title is two words long.
Pls tell me the title if you find them
I FINALLY LEGIT FOUND IT!!! no wonder I couldn't find a lick of it, no one uploaded it here yet!! the title is Naive Reverie and the jp title is 雛鳥の夢想 (Hinadori no Musou). you can read it in c.mix
Thank you so much for telling me
Please find this: The manwha it starts off with the seme being a short goofy nerd kid (black hair) and the uke (brown hair) is some double faced asshole with some deep issues. the seme then suddenly has a growth spurt and is now like super hot and tall. the two of them then became like a situationship and then got separated cuz of the uke's other issues. I dropped it out of frustration cuz I read that the uke then loses his first time to someone other than the seme but now I'm curious how the story is rn
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/monochrome_diary/ i think it's this, it ragebaited me so bad i dropped it + picked it up again 5 times
also it's completed now, the ending itself isn't "bad" i would say, but it's still unsatisfying like the 2nd half
oh my god thank you so much. also ur so right I hate the story and the characters are all wi,py as hell but I'm still morbidly curious