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This is not your typical toxic bl. Infact Jiwook is not Juyeon's victim rather its Jiwook getting his due from Juyeon. While the manhwa and story puts on Jiwook getting abused front and center, the actual story is Juyeon who's battling his inner demons coping the abuse he received from Jiwook and yet still harboring feelings for him despite being abused by Jiwook

To put it short, Juyeon used to follow Jiwook during their school days and Juyeon basically acted as his junior running errands and Jiwook looked out for him. Juyeon developed feelings for Jiwook and confessed, but Jiwook along with his friends decided to abuse Juyeon for being 'faggot' and SA him and recorded the abuse and sent it to Juyeon's mother who after watching it collapsed. While the victim suffered the pain, the perepetrator, Jiwook walked on as of nothing happened. So Juyeon decided to get revenge by doing exactly what Jiwook done to him and make him remember the crime he committed

Jiwook is a extremely proud and self centered guy who knocks down on others just to prop himself up which actually plays into his downfall. His so called friends are lookong for a moment to ditch him and see how he falls and the guys who assaulted Jiwook? It's Jiwook who first insulted him and attacked him. I'm not celebrating or condoning actions committed towards Jiwook but rather stating that its a poetic justice, a karmic lash thats being delivered to him for his actions

The inner conflict, fear, anxiety, pain, doubt its felt like i'm the one experiencing it rather than someone observing it. Unfortunately prejudice and hierarchy very much exists in schools. The negative cliches we write it off exists in schools and the social environment in schools is very much toxic and abusive.

Many people write it off as boring and complaining that MC is like 'this and that' is missing the point. He's trying to survive socially in an environment where its basically "dog eat dog" world and him being weak and is from a rich family puts him a big target. We can go on an on about such toxicity and violence and how it exists beyond school but I'm gonna give Jun props for trying to play cards right so that he can emerge unscathed

And for Yohan, its similar in his case too. He's trying to put up appearence so that no one can mess with him as he lost affection and place in his home. He's starved off affection and using his loner status as a currency to put up walls crafting himself as "enigma". I can understand him feeling betrayed and gutted when Jun pulled that stunt (it was meant to be well meaning, but it actually cost Jun Yohan's trust and maybe Yohan father's ire) but the chapter 43 left a bit of bad feeling as he assaulted Jun

And as for from ch 44, everything occuring to him and him drawing parallels to Taeson and Yohan needlessly trying to raise the hell with Jun did send some shivers done the spine as if I'm experiencing it. Miscommunication took hold but I think Yohan should have reached out properly instead of him doing whatever he did upto ch 53 but there's one thing that's bugging me

How did Jun broke his arm? How did he step into glass? I mean Yohan did tell that he would "raise hell" or something similar. If its truly coincidence and Yohan using it to play mind games then its shitty but there's something salvegeable but if its truly Yohan's doing of getting Jun physically hurt then thats a completely different matter entirely. But Yohan did purposefully mess with Jun by needlessly shouting at him openly to gain attention, holding his weakness over him. But Jun also has a hold over Yohan, his weakness at home. If Yohan cross the line too much, Jun can easily pull that card exposing him as gay and reveal that his family is ashamed of him, but it can easily become double edged sword and Yohan's a suprisingly sharp opponent so Jun has to play that card very smartly and carefully

But seeing the special chapters, I guess both did like each other enough where they worked the problems and ended up together, and I think Jun may have gotten his parents blessings (or maybe not, but it'll be interesting to see how that plays out)

If Yohan is sincere about Jun then I would like him to apologize to Jun (it rarely happens in real life, so its fine to expect this much in fiction)

If only I can read the novel, god I miss booktoki, I was unable to find any real equivalent to it...If yall found it, please share the link...