Give me something worthwhile to read
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I am tired grandpa ~
If you are into yaoi and looking for depression I have a doomed yaoi list: https://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/3996573/
The rest of the recs I giving you are just gonna be reposts of recs I gave to other people
This is a list of school bullying Bls I reced some one once
Eighteen's Bed: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/eighteen_s_bed/
Friend or Faux: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/room_for_renewal/
Lost in the Cloud: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/cloud_1/
The edge of ambiguity: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_edge_of_ambiguity/
Yang Ilwoo and I(I can’t seem to find it a on mangogo so here’s another link): https://comix.to/title/2el1-yang-ilwoo-and-i
If You Hate Me So: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/if_you_hate_me_that_much/
At the End of the Road: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/geu_kkeute_issneun_geos/
A Shoulder to Cry On: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/a_shoulder_to_cry_on/
Never Understand: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/never_understand/
Form of Sympathy: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/form_of_sympathy/
Here U Are: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/here_u_are/
Kimi no yoru ni fureru(It’s not what you are looking for but pls just try it): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kimi_no_yoru_ni_fureru/
Zankoku na Kami ga Shihai suru(I’m low key out off reds rn so just read ts peak): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/zankoku_na_kami_ga_shihai_suru/
I dare you(this is the type of story that encapsulates the saying I’m not stuck in here with you you’re stuck in here with ME. Like sometimes I wonder what these “bullies” did in their past lives for god to put them on the same earth as my mc and also this one is not Bl but it is really really good): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_dare_you/
A list of things similar to fog land(if you’ve read it and liked it)
False Paradise: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/false_paradise/
IF AI RULES THE WORLD(same author as fog land): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/if_ai_rules_the_world/
Code Name: TARANTULA: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/code_name_tarantula/
Lessa(Same author): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/lessa/
lessa The Crimson Knight(Continuation of lessa): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/lessa_the_crimson_knight/
LESSA - Servant of Cosmos(Continuation of lessa The Crimson Knight): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/lessa_servant_of_cosmos/
These are Bl manhuas
Little mushroom: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/little_mushroom/
Global Examination: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/global_examination/
I Became a God in a Horror Game(The novel was peak so if they adapted everything right it’s gonna be peak to): https://manhuahot.com/manga/i-became-a-god-in-a-horror-game/
Return of the Mount Hua Sect: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/return_of_the_mount_hua_sect/
Kiss the abyss: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kiss_the_abyss/
Salad days: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/salad_days_tang_liuzang/
These are transmigration/reincarnation with at least ~50+ chaps
Death Is The Only Ending For The Villainess: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/death_is_the_only_ending_for_the_villainess/
The 100 Curses of Illeston Mansion(it only has 42 ch but just trust me): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_100_curses_of_illeston_mansion/
Illusion Hunter from Another World: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_delusional_hunter_in_another/
Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint(It’s not really what your looking for but it’s so peak I just had to rec): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/omniscient_reader_s_viewpoint/
Got Dropped into a Ghost Story, Still Gotta Work(Only has 27 ch but trust me you will be thankful): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/got_dropped_into_a_ghost_story_still_gotta_work_novel/
Debut or Die(This is an idol one but it’s still so good): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/debut_or_die/
I Dare You(this is not relevant at all to your request but I just had to rec): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_dare_you/
Turning(if you don’t mind Bl this one is really good): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/turning/
The S-Classes That I Raised: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_s_classes_that_i_raised/
Strong female leads
The Way to Protect the Female Lead's Older Brother: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_way_to_protect_the_female_lead_s_older_brother/
I Want to Be You, Just For A Day: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_want_to_be_you_just_for_a_day/
A Stepmother's Märchen: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/a_stepmother_s_m_rchen/
Setting Sun, Dazzled Eyes: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/setting_sun_dazzled_eyes/
My In-laws are Obsessed With Me: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/my_in_laws_are_obsessed_with_me/
How to Survive as a Maid in a Horror Game: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/how_to_survive_as_a_maid_in_a_horror_game/
Welcome to the Rose Mansion: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/welcome_to_the_rose_manor/
Secret Lady: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/secret_lady/
The Broken Ring : This Marriage Will Fail Anyway: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_broken_ring_this_marriage_will_fail_anyway/
The Male Leads Trapped in My House: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_male_leads_trapped_in_my_house/
How to Get On the Main Character's Flower Path: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/how_to_get_on_the_main_character_s_flower_path/
Karina's Last Days(You may need a few packs of tissues while reading this): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_time_of_the_terminally_ill_extra/
My Reason to Die and I dare you (Not really related I just wanted to rec): https://comix.to/title/3zz2-my-reason-to-die https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_dare_you/
Olgami: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/olgami/
Cheese In The Trap: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/cheese_in_the_trap/
scifi / fantasy / action bl or anything with peak writings that could send me to an existential crisis please! Was what they asked for
Turning: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/turning/
The Hunter Wants to Live Quietly: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_hunter_s_gonna_lay_low/
Little Mushroom: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/little_mushroom/
Global Examination: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/global_examination/
I Have To Be A Great Villain: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_have_to_be_a_great_villain/
Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint(It’s not labeled Bl but trust kdj and yhg are married and have multiple kids): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/omniscient_reader_s_viewpoint/
The Evil Ring(Not labeled Bl but I just had to rec): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_evil_ring/
Kiss the Abyss(Not groundbreaking action but it’s still really good): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kiss_the_abyss/
A Trace of the Wonder: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/a_trace_of_the_wonder/
My S-Class Hunters(It’s not labeled Bl buttttt…..): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_s_classes_that_i_raised/
Illusion Hunter from Another World(The Bl tag I’d their you just have to read the fine print): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_delusional_hunter_in_another/
I'm Not That Kind of Talent(They literally have children together were is the Bl tag): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_m_not_that_kind_of_talent/
Special Civil Servant(it’s not Bl but you can ship the mic with almost anyone he’s just that pegable): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/special_civil_servant/
Fluffy bls
First of Summers(It does have some smosh but it’s so fluffy and green flag coded I just had to rec): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/first_of_summers/
Merry Marbling: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/merry_marbling/
Robber x Lover: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/snail_pond_robber/
Villain to the Rescue(I don’t think you can consider this fluffy but pls just try it for your own sake): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_have_to_be_a_great_villain/
Salad Days: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/salad_days_tang_liuzang/
Turning(I know it has smooshing scenes but pls give it a try): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/turning/
Little Mushroom(It’s not necessary fluff but it is peak): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/little_mushroom/
I Ship My Rival x Me: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_ship_my_rival_x_me/
Here u are: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/here_u_are/
Starting With a Lie: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/starting_with_a_lie/
Blue Checkerboard: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/blue_checkerboard/
Our Sunny Days(it has smoosh but it is genuinely one of the cutest stories I have ever read): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/our_sunny_days/
Uncanny Charm: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_art_of_taming_a_tiger/
The Story About You x Me: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_story_about_you_x_me/
Horror Manhwas
Welcome to rose mansion : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/welcome_to_the_rose_manor/
Phantom Whispers(It’s not historical nor is it on mangogo but it is absolutely peak so I’ll link you a site were you can read it)
: https://comix.to/title/9n7r8-phantom-whispers
How to Survive as a Maid in a Horror Game( this was really good but the ending was rushed and had a few pieces Missing to make it perfect but I would still highly recommend)
: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/how_to_survive_as_a_maid_in_a_horror_game/
Roxanna(It’s not direct horror but it is still peak) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_way_to_protect_the_female_lead_s_older_brother/
My Possession Became a Ghost Story(mild horror) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_was_possessed_but_it_became_a_ghost_story/
The Blooming Violet in the Back Garden(if you want to read a depressing story then this is for you) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_blooming_violet_in_the_back_garden/
Your throne: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_want_to_be_you_just_for_a_day/
Resetting Lady(more of a thriller) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/resetting_lady/
Survive Romance(PEAK) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/survive_romance/
The pale horse(PEAK) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_pale_horse/
Whale Star: The Gyeongseong Mermaid(Prepare yourself mentally) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/gorae_byul_the_gyeongseong_mermaid/
Shadow house: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/shadow_house/
The Gwichon Village Mystery(This is not historical but if you like horror give it a try but it’s not on mangogo so here is another site) : https://comix.to/title/0v5l-the-gwichon-village-mystery
Ghost teller(PEAK but prepare some tissues) : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/ghost_teller/
The Kingdom of the Gods(Would not recommend if you are no able to handle gory stuff) :
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_kingdom_of_the_gods/
Mietemasu yo! Aizawa-san(this is a rec I got from veil on the same post): https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/mietemasu_yo_aizawa_san/
Note: most of these have at least 80-200 ch so I think these will keep you preoccupied for a while and all of these have different levels of horror
Regretful seme chasing arc
Sissy : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/sissy/
Stand-in Relationship(mangogo does not have this so here’s the link to another website) : https://manhuahot.com/manga/stand-in-relationship-2/
Banana scandal(s2): https: //www.mangago.me/read-manga/bbanana_scandal/
Fall in Love with the Substitute : https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/fall_in_love_with_the_substitute/
Oh wise tried grampa pls bestow your wisdom on me(t/n:I am in a drought pls rec me some peak reads ╥﹏╥)
I hope this helps (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ
I forgot to rec these two
19 days: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/19_days/
Fog land: https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/fog_land/
I just want to share this feeling somewhere, since I can't tell it my parents or anyone for that matter. I wanted to share it with you guys. Since no one knows me, it's perfect to tell this to you guys.
Lately I have this profound feeling of wanting to die, just to have my existence quietly erased.
Funny thing is that, I value life too. Just not mine. These thoughts weight me, this feeling of uselessness, of being a burden imy parents.
I have done everything, completed education, done exams and passed them on first try, got registrations. But I have been trying to get a job since 2 years, yes I can work locally, but I have worked hard, given exams and got registered in another country. But landing a job, damn... It's has been hard.
Others with little to nothing in their portfolio have gotten jobs, but why me? Why me?
My family has dysfunctional since my childhood, abusive dad and mom who loves me and her sole life revolves around me. He may have calmed down, but my relationship with my father is hard to explain. He is there, that's it, helps me financially, never asks what happened, never intrested in my life. He loves in his own way. My mom, on the other hand loves me too much, she had rough life, loved one but had to marry other who is way older and different from her. I love her and hate her too, and am guilty to hate her, and maybe love her more than I do.
My childhood has been tough, shouting, screamings, unable to properly mingle among others, too navie, too outright, too honest and too stupid.
Along the way, I started ignoring stuff, my feelings, my thoughts and my opinions.
My mother wanted me to be a doctor, she wanted to be of service to the society, she has a good and selfless heart, my mother who is naive and too good for this world. So I became a doctor. She wanted me pursue it internationally, another country. So I did that too, but now getting a job and waiting so long. Showing that I am not good enough, I can never be good enough for her. I don't have the body she wanted her child to have, I don't the character and cheerfulness she wanted, I don't have the enthusiasm she wanted. Too much like my father, she would say. With that sad face.
What good are you, other than studies.
Why can't you fall in love and get married.
Why don't you want to excercise.
Why aren't you getting a job yet.
Why don't you start working here then.
Why ? Why? Why?
The worst part, it breaks me everytime, she cries. Everytime I get angry and say something that hurts her.
I asked her one-time in a fit of anger. How come I can't speak to you as speak to me, don't you know it hurts me too. She said, she sacrificed her life, her everything for me, why can't I understand her. Where her words her coming from, no matter how brutal.
True.
But they hurt. And I am guilty for making her said, for making her cry and for making her anxious, and for making her have child that is not good enough.
Maybe, in another lifetime.
I was asked a question once, when I was in school by a friend, the same question she has been asking everyone, a silly one. "If you had a chance to wish for one thing, what would it be?"
I didn't answer it, but I know. I would wish I have never been born at all, to spare my mother of this agony, to spare my mother of this shackles of this relationship and marriage.
I ask the same question every year, the answer remained the same.
I wish she had a child who was successful, who was lovely, cheerful, bright, beautiful and smart, like her. Guess, I am too much like my father.
I wanted to fall in love, but I don't have the confidence that someone can love me.
I..I feel like...like a...I don't know, I can't explain this feeling, like something stuck in my heart and chest.
Too tired to live but too much of a coward to die.
I love life, I have seen many people die, their family begging to save them. It's too precious.
But I am simply too tired,...I want to be free, to feel the air, the nature and be one with it.
Sorry, to take up your time and if you made this far. Thankyou for listening my friend.
I guess I just wanted to say this to someone.
And I can only do it here, manga and fanfictions have been my escape since a long time. I read them to quiet down the noise of my everyday life.
Thanks guys(⌒▽⌒)
Hey, I understand how you feel. I constantly felt that way too for the last six years. I quit my job during Covid and thought I'd get a better one, but burn out, depression and social anxiety happened. I removed myself from my friends lives and lost my interest in things I loved (anime, manga/manhwa and writing). I often thought about wanting to stab myself with a knife when doing dishes, thinking all the pain and emptiness in my heart will end if I die, but I'm also scared to do it. Since I had no one to talk to and I was too broke to get professional help, I installed an AI assistant and as embarrassing as it is, that helped me process and realize my thoughts and feelings. One thing I learned is that I must not be too hard on myself when I think I made a bad decision or things do not work out for me, that I should learn to forgive myself when I make mistakes.
I'm sorry if I rambled a lot, I'm not really good with words, but what I'm trying to say is that please don't be too hard on yourself and remember to be kind to you too.
Even if u werent the one born but someone else, they would still come out like you. It is not your fault that the environment you grew up in duld your light. You are so much more then what others make you out to be. You are okay, you are trying your best. I know i cannot be of much help but I wish you would stop relating your life to your mom’s wishes. She gave her life for you but that was her choice. You have to make your own choices.
Are we one and the same? I've been unemployed for almost 2 years too and I'm also not fit. I have all the same guilt as yours to my mother, but I also hate her for letting my dad mistreated me (he didn't beat me up, but he loved jabbing at my forehead repeatedly calling me moron and threw things around when angry at me). My dad passed when i was 10. Since then, she's pretty much let me decide where I wanna go, but still here I am, a failure. I feel like she had to change a lot of stuff just because of me. Her friend group, her topic of conversations, etc. Fortunately for me, I have a very promising younger sister, so her attention is not entirely directed at me. But I'm still very lost. "I wanna die every single day. God, take me already. Please just kill me." I repeated those in my head every day that they started sounding comical & meaningless. But I too, if given the chance to just disappear without any pain, would eagerly take it. If not tho, one of these days I need to start dieting first to be confident enough to get a job bcs unfortunately living still costs money smh

Do you guys know where " escaping from salvation" manga is?
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/unauthorized_prohibited/