avoidant x anxious relationship + both of them have bpd traits + theyre both losers and mentally unwell and dependent on each other in ways that destroy each other and themselves + this is looking a lot like my relationships and im lowk crying
This is prob useless asf but like pls for the love of god LEAVE
man, whatever. im gonna keep reading it anyway cuz im a fat chud
LOID IDK IF ITS GONNA WORK BRO, IT MIGHT MAKE SHE A LITTLE EEPY AT BEST BUT LIKE, IDK. MAYBE ITS A REALLY STRONG TRANQUILIZER, BUT IDK MAN omg hes so cooked. although im a little sad we're getting less screentime of anya, i do enjoy seeing everyone (yuri, yor and loid) playing 5d chess to get out of sticky situations. anya would be a great help in all these situations but theres always a possibility that she could slip up and say something suspicious. i lob anya sm
girl just thug out like 12-48hrs of pain and suffering then itll all be over. js cut yourself and smear feces or dirt on your cut to guarantee an infection or something dude /hj
tuff as in its gonna be so angst filled that im never gonna want to read angst ever again. im def gon have to read this is separate sittings my heart cant take 50+ chapters of straight angst its so depressing man. im gonna go read some jerk off comedy shit after this
my thoughts so far:
i js be thinking to myself "suicide is always an option" then im like "ok but thats the easy way out and lowk ml js edging her with that false hope. and i understand not being able to let go of someone youve loved for so long, i really do, and watching her hope that he could just revert back to how it used to be? oh gosh, heart broken. tears flowing.
and its so hard to read mc getting some semblance of hope then it being crushed almost immediately. its js really heartbreaking. like at that point id js give up tbh man. mc you better than me cuz i would have found some way to acquire a gun and kill myself in front of him (ml)
losing all hope is more merciful than being given false hope then getting it crushed immediately. but thats just my personal opinion.
this is a really heavy read as someone thinks like ines. i can properly articulate myself but js the way she keeps everyone at a distance and sees judges people based on how much of a threat they are to her peace. i dont think she even wants to live anymore, shes gone through so much hurt and it seems like shes just given up and only cares to stay as quiet and unassuming as possible to keep herself safe. and how she treats sex as a transactional thing to keep your partner happy is just, really fucking sad. like fuck. tell me you were repeatedly taken advantage of by your partner without telling me you were repeatedly taken advantage of by your partner, like shit dude. anyway, ill come back to this in like a month when i can stomach another 20 chapters.
It makes more sense later on js keep reading