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Soo the thing is I want to study abroad but the thing is that my parents might not like it so much and also I'm thinking of applying for it next year and ik man I'm teenager and my parents are very strict idk how to confront my dad abt my studies and ik I'm gonna get reject but any opinions guys I'm pretty nervous ╥﹏╥ they also won't allow bec I'm a girl +teenager and all those annoying stuffs but I still wanna try ^^

Soo I'm very confused at my situation bec I used to had a bf but we broke due to some personal reasons and I was in love with him too much then after we broke up he was still in love with so was I but after sometime when I think I had him I lost all my interest in him and now we do exchange some msgs but I don't think my feelings for him is love there comes my bsf she was my bsf but for u-8 months we were in no contact but now we js got in contact I confess all the feelings and loneliness and all things but after I confessed my feelings for her she accepted me I'm confused bec i don't have feelings for her now but I used to had feelings for her back then and plus she has borderline personality and anger issues but our friendship is 3 years old if I got in relationship with her our friendship will be ruined but idk what to do should I reciprocate her feelings or not and I recommended that let's go on a trial were in long distance friendship and busy with our studies we understand eachother but the problem is im pretty confused and don't know who to ask for opinion or suggestion's on what I should do ╥﹏╥

So how do y'all maintain long distance friendship with huge time differences I mean I know people will say online friendship doesn't work or whatever but it can be different right and I wanna make our friendship work I don't want to leave them bec of silly reasons so I'll do whatever I can but can someone gimme some ideas on how I should do ╥﹏╥

So like,there's a girl I needed to befriended with her bec we were in the same group and in the same class so mostly we met eo often.So instead of getting awkward or ignoring her,i wanted us to be to good friends and she ws a introvert so I started msging her daily and used to give her all attention I kinda love bomb her ig but she ws a coldie mostly times she won't reply me or left me on seen this and that.But after sometime we gradually got close bec I supported her,when she ws having trouble with smth and then I started to give her less n less time,I did msged her but after 2 or 3 days and slowly I didn't msg her first she started msging me first so then I started talking to her daily and yesterday she msged and I accidentally left her on seen and now she's mad like why did I do that and when I apologized she left me on seen and I msged her in morning so she replied with oh I slept last night so I forgot to reply then I said now we are even and she js reacted to my msg and said bye and now I didn't msg her again
I don't know who should I ask so I'm here became I don't know what to do now ￣□￣||