Ahhh yes Jo, the third supposed main character, being dwindled down to a plot device to strengthen a drawn out relationship based solely on trauma and time we love that so, SO much.
Ian should have ended up with no one, thats the conclusion i’m at right now. Jo is so far out of Ians league its insane, and TJ is a fuck up who finally, after multiples of mistakes, being confused on what he really wanted finally knows what he wants after over a decade, doesn't deserve Ian for dragging him on for so long. Ian went back to TJ because he’s all he's truly known, yes they love each other but this relationship only lasted because of their extremely long, complicated history. If Ian had known Jo for the same amount of time he knew Tj, he would have surely picked Jo.
Im so dissatisfied with this ending, I just want to see Jo one last time.
All that character development for Ian for what, Ians destination is to start anew with his toxic lover thats he given one too many chances? Tj even chose the gang over at him at one point..I guess this story shows how some things never change. I should have expected this is another run of the mill toxic yaois where we get a second green flag ML only for the MC go go back to their toxic partner, I mustve forgot I was reading the BL genre where every author does this.
Just saw spoilers/ raws of ch 97 … idek what to say Ian is moving backwards instead of backwards, I guess its kind of realistic in the sense some people don’t want better for themselves ans prefer to stay in sticky situations. Disappointed in Ian.
Him saying he found his destination could mean a destination for himself to grow as an individual, not the destination where the 2 MLs are heading. He specifically said he’s not returning to the past. He assured Jo that he shouldn’t worry because he is moving forward, not backward and that made Jo smile despite his heartache, because what truly mattered to him was Ian’s growth and forward progress, with or without him.
Yes, I think what “destination” meant here was figurative, as if he had finally found his own life goal or purpose. Ian choosing to live independently in his new life, free from the negative feelings/thoughts , toxic patterns and toxic people from his past. He’s starting over on his own for the sake of his growth and healing, not defining himself through either of the two MLs. After his near-death experience, his memento mori tattoo may also carry a new meaning. Instead of “Remember you will die,” it becomes “Remember you are alive.”








Ive been waiting for this moment. PLEASE.