i read this when i was in highschool back in 2016. i truly loved this story; one of my favorites of all time. i loved the sketchy style of the art and panels; loved how the dialogue flowed; loved the atmosphere and feelings but now reading it again in 2024, i have the same feelings but there's something missing. what senpai felt for mami was no joke; he was capitvated by her. i don't think it was platonic love but then again it just might be, like, the person can be your soulmate without any romantic subtext. but he also loved hoshino which we can say was romantic love yet he never voiced his love for him as much as he did with mami. He wanted to protect, shelter and honor mami even going as far as to ask her hand in marriage. but he didn't even do the bare minimum for hoshino, who's apparently the object of his attraction. And if mami were alive (obvs that would erase the point of the manga) but isn't that...sad? if she were alive, would senpai be conflicted and waver when he sees hoshino again? unfortunately, i don't think so which just makes this a lot harder to digest now that I've grown up.
I also read it when I was teenager now as adult I feel seme is not affectionate enough towards uke he only looks like a person who see uke as someone he feel something for but don't have guts to hold on , i don't know I hate to admit but there are plenty mangas i read as a teenager now as adult they become weak at emotional level.
why do i have a feeling that the author is trying to tone down the gay elements? perhaps they didn't expect it to be this popular? i have no problem; the story's great regardless
From what I’ve seen from the raws the author is probably taking their time with the romance, there are so many aspects to this story that need specific attention so I have the feeling it’s going to be the slow burn type which may be a pain to wait for but it’s going to make everything so much better in the end. I have confidence in our author!! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
I wouldn't really classify this as romance per se, it's probably a lot closer to dysfunctional dependency born of grief and infatuation, at least for me. And ye, I'm aware it's heavily plot focused but the omake at the end of chapter 17 turned me off. 'Also you're a guy' a little harmless but it still miffed me like I thought we were well past the oh we're two guys how can it be possible phase. Well one guy x thing in the form of a guy lol. Whether it's romance or gay subtext, Id rather not the author butcher it.
TLDR: it's a little late for no homo jokes ( ̄へ ̄)
Yeah it’s such a shame. I realized there’s more psychological, mystery, or horror theme bl’s in manwhas and manhuas but rarely in mangas.
I thought the author would be the first one to make a horror bl that actually has a good plot. Sucks that she changed her mind.
At least it was confirmed that both old Hikaru and the mc did like each other in that way.
i already predicted this would happen hence my initial comment. i can immediately tell when authors try to diminish a certain aspect of the story. you'll notice authors will start to make jokes, satirize or downplay the situation, regarding said element (in this context, the gay implication). it's jarring and ruins the immersion of writing and art. there could be several reasons why the author didnt follow through and i think it's because of it's sudden overwhelming popularity.....or if they toned it down maybe it'll get a better chance of an anime adaption who knows.








i read season 1 and the first chapters of season 2 thinking it'll be a love triangle with the glasses one being the target. I was like meh and dropped it BUT NOW IM FINDING OUT THE SHIP WAS WAYYY DIFFERENT THAT THE ONE I THOUGHT OF. Binging as soon as i get off from my work