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For society and every one else around me I am a "nerd", a "conservative", a good girl, a serious girl, and so on. While I only love reading yaoi in secret and fantasize a lot about having sex with a miracle boyfriend..... It's like I have a double life

I used to be racist and mean. And I haven't been able to come up with any reasoning or excuse behind it. I was just racist and mean? And I know i've grown, but it doesn't excuse the fact that I am white and said the n word, and made offensive racial jokes, and called people names, and made people uncomfortable. And apparently self love is also part......