I love this story so much but i don't know if i can handle all the second hand embarrassments that happens in the story again(i have read the novel)
I can send you the link in dms
As for spoilers
I'm skipping alot of stuffs because i don't want to spoil too much
Marilyn is a horse that Ren raided since childhood but he was forced to sell it on the way to the north
Gisel set it up so rensly can take the lnight order entrance exams and even arranged it so Marilyn would be brought back(but didn't tell ren about it at all), Ren passed both tests perfectly which allowed him to go out without issues but a while after he joined he heard people gossiping that Grand Duke hasn't slept with his wife yet and people thought he might be impotent. Ren asked the duke about his past relationship and turned out Gisel is a virgin that hasn't even kissed anyone before so Ren offered to teach him so he wouldn't be clueless for his next marriage, Ren slowly realized he might have feelings for Gisel and asked him to sleep with him.
Their first time was a disaster because both were clueless about gay sex and didn't do any foreplay and they had to stop midway because it hurt Rensly too much
Next day Ren had a fever and Gisel made a ointment to treat his back side but since it numbed the pain ren ended up coming from Gisel's fingers alone then asked him for sex again and this time it was successful because of the ointment also turned out Gisel is an absolute beast in bed(▰˘◡˘▰)











This story actually does a great job in showing someone's mental deterioration over an infatuation, especially someone who was already clearly struggling with depression
This is the reason why I love the author so much. I still haven't caught up with the recent chapters, but the plan she mentioned in her creator's notes kinda perfectly encapsulated whatever the fuck is happening right now (๑•ㅂ•)و✧.
man in my head I’m like glad this ain’t real because if they don’t last blondey didn’t gonna off himself