Liked Someone I Shouldn't Like

I grew up very very strict family that wasn't my big problem until now . Because recently i growing my feeling for a girl. I don't know how i end up liking her . my family wouldn't allow me to go with a boy now it's a girl. I know they will force me to get married after 2 years later. If the find out they might kill me .... why i end up like this

My mom (who is divorced) has been in love with this guy who i feel just wants to have sex with her. All he talks about with her is sex and every once in a week my mom comes crying to me she doesnt want to be treated like this. I always tell her to cut off ties with him but she always ends up contacting this guy again and again

On this new update. While I'm playing codm right in the middle of my second game the "toooottooot" sound starts playing with the lag. Help.