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(WARNING: it's a bit grapey..)
So, when i was 5 or 6. My Aunt and My cousins Stayed at my family's house for 3 days
after a day, My Oldest cousin(let's call him Aaron) asked me to come upstairs at one of my Brother's room. and reminder that my brother is at college
So when me and him went upstairs, he asked me to bend down in the bed
so i did since i didn't know what he was on about. and when i did it, he kinda.. GRAPED me from behind and he said "it's a normal thing between us" and then when my mom shouted it's dinner. he said it needs to be a secret between me and him. so after dinner.. He asked me to go upstairs again and.. he did it again to me.. when My aunt and my cousins went home. my mom asked what happened to me and aaron, i said we were just "playing" so whenever he comes over to my family's house he always "did" that to me
so when i turned 12 or 14 i think. he stopped doing it to me
and to this day, i still remember it. and I now knew what he always did to me
(side note: i still haven't talked to my parents about it..)