Eat Crayon

I've been thinking abt this a lot, but man, do I fucking hate myself for being a hopeless romantic
I've read and watched anything romance related ever since I was a kid
Telenovelas, mangas, animes, animated and irl series, and it's definitely my favorite genre straight, yuri, bl, I don't caaaareee, and also I think that's why I js love shipping sm, bc it's fun and all
But that has definitely made me a hopeless romantic, I know I gotta be realistic and not indulge myself into thinking that life is like a movue and I'm gonna find the love of my life in a bookstore or something like that, but is it bad to js wish it was like that
I know there's the day after a "happy ending" and even if you fall in love or you have a partner, does not mean everything is gonna be in rose colored glasses, I really do, but at the same time I can't give up on the idea of a cute safe healthy romantic relationship w constant gestures and reassurance
I literally have to take breaks when I read shoujo manga like a sign of affection bc of how freaking cute they are, I even cry when cute things happen bc I'm very sensitive
I feel like being a hopeless romantic or js a romantic person nowadays is kinda hard
Like, people would either call you a simp if you're a guy, or that you're corny and cringey
BUT THAT'S PART OF IT, showing off your vulnerable side to this one person bc you LOVE them and trying new things for them, BC U LOVE THEM
Small things matter, paying attention to little details abt your partner matters, surprising them w gifts or cards is so important to me and it's js so infuriating when ppl think that "js gave her a like in her ig post" IS ROMANTIC?!?!?!?@?@
I hate that situationships are now a thing, BRO, I'M NOR WASTING MY TIME IF YOU DONT WANT ME, JS TELLLLLL MEEEEEEEEEEEE